In my blogmas post from yesterday I told you about making myself a budgetplanner for the next couple of months (or years) to come.
Now it’s like the beginning of December and this is going to be a hard month because every store in Belgium is giving their anual discounts.
So like this past weekend, I recieved 2 mails from a store here in Belgium where I used to order or shop in store my make-up and parfum. Now they are giving a 21% discount for everything on their website. This is so cruel
Most products I’ve been using for almost 6 months now, so it’s time to buy new ones.
BUT that’s not going to be easy …
December 3, 2017 … ‘saying goodbye to my favorite beauty products’
Here is another part of why it’s so hard to have autism and having a budgetplanner and less money in a month.
I’ve been using this products for years now (always buying one after one was empty), always the same brand, always the same style.
I always waited till I got a discount and then I made a hudge order all together. Now that’s impossible.
For me as an autistic girl this means I have to buy a new brand, new products, new colors, new senses. I’m not exactly sure if I can do this change without crying or without beeing angry.
Every change I have to make in a day is so hard. Taking another buss home, or getting a phone to leave at that moment is something I just can’t do.
Here are just 2 beautiful brands I’m now going to miss every single day of my life.
Spending around 18 or 20 EUR for a fantastic lipstick that was okay for me. At home I have like 15 POP lipsticks from Clinique (different shades or 3 empty ones of the same shade “Love pop”).
The minute I used those lipsticks I was in love. They had a great taste, and just so beautiful to put on your lips. They last a long time, most of my workday I didn’t have to used another layer.
One of my favorite Clinique products, but I have more than this 😉
I’ve been using these products every single day of my life ! I was just one with them, but it now came to an end. I have to say goodbye and start using a cheaper brand. I just can’t afford 18 EUR or 20 EUR for a lipstick at this moment. Or 20 EUR for just some (but so beautiful eyeshadow) stick with eyeshadow 😥
It really makes my soooooo sad right now. I just want to click to the ‘order’ buttom on the website but I know it will be so wrong to spend it on make-up 😥
Last year I missed the Clinique Advent Calender, I really wanted it but it was always sold-out. So this year I’m just missing it again because I don’t have the budget to spend like 70 EUR for some products that this autistic girl never tried before. In normal life (without paying for a house) I just would have bought it anyway.
I just hate all these big changes in my life rightnow. Leaving my house where I’ve been living for more than 30 years, leaving all the animals, looking at the stuff I need and the prices before buying it and always have a look on my budgetplanner from this month. As someone with autism this new life sucks, and I’m just so freaking out because of all the changes right now.
Lancôme ‘la vie est belle’
Another product that’s almost gone and that I can’t replace is my favorite parfum of Lancôme la vie est belle.
Ever since this parfum came out in fall 2012 I’ve been using this. Sometimes I bought the normal version or the other time the intense version.
Everybody knows me wearing this parfum and smelling so amazing. I’m just one with my parfum. I just really love it, it’s so perfect.
The thing about not replacing the bottle is so hard. It’s like I’m giving up a part of me that was safe, that was so great, that was just me.
I’m now freaking out about the fact what other peolpe will think if I’m just going to start using another parfum. Will it still be great, will it still last for hours, will it be as perfect as Lancôme was for me.
This time of year I always buy the special giftboxes just for me. It will be hard the next few weeks when I’m visiting the city of Mechelen again. Maybe I have to stay away from the city as I will be seeing all the people shop for their Christmas present and I just can’t.
Oh yes, at this moment I do complain. I still love my parttime job as a shoeseller and having a better life knowing I still have time for me (and to work on myself). All those changes that I have to do right now are so frustrating and freaking me out. I feel like a toddler that have to learn everything again.
Giving up everything I just adore and starting with all other products is so hard. I just hope I can do this and be happy while having this budgetplanner and no budget for buying my favorite products. Guess this is real life of people having a disorder and can’t function as a fulltime employee. You can’t work that many hours, having less money but having extra medical bills you have to pay each month to survive your life.
Hope blogging will help me with keeping my budget the next weeks !
Till tomorrow ! Love Lucy xx