So here it is … The day after Christmas ! Yesterday I was hoping for this day to come, now I want it do be over !
When your body is killing yourself !
As a girl with autism, one of the things I really hate is the holiday season in December. Really like the past week, and the upcoming week.
How about Christmas day?
Well, I can be short … it was a horrible day ! We had some family over for the afternoon and dinner time.
Everybody was screaming, yelling insteat of talking and that all before drinking alcohol. So I start to watch some episodes of Fuller House on mij iPhone.
That was good for 45 min and then I had to go home (the house next door). I was already too much, and need a time to escape the madness.
It wasn’t that great beeing there together, like always I started to get a migraine. Those people don’t understand ‘having autism’ so I haven’t told them I have autism. Will it change their behevior? NOPE, it will be worst I guess.
So next Christmas I’ll be living on my own, and I will be just alone for Christmas without family and without the screaming. Then it will be just me and my cats.
Spending Christmas in a quiet place, YEAH I really can’t wait. Maybe that will make me love the holidays again.
For dinner I had just a sandwich with peanutbutter and jam, and some whipped cream cake.
After dinner I had enough ! I went home, not saying goodbye and locked the door here. I wanted to be alone. Later that evening they were leaving and they were knocking on the door, but I refused to open it and to say goodbye. When I’m hurt I’m hurt.
The day after Christmas
So what about today ?
Today I woke up at 9am, ate some breakfast and went back to bad. My head was exploding and I had pain just everywhere (now I have horrible pain in my hand writing this blog).
This afternoon I stayed in bed and watched the last episodes of Fuller House. I actually woke up again and came out of bed around 3 pm!
All my muscles hurt so much, can bearly move and have no energy doing stuff.
Seeing a doctor?
Yes, I’ve searched for an appointement with a specialist. Everywhere here in my area is having a long waiting time. SO, I can have an appointement at the end of MAY.
Yess you read it good ! An appointement in MAY ! So this will be a long 5 months with pain everywhere. So horrible! (I know this blog had a lot of ‘horrible’ in it, sorry). Feeling like Grumpy cat right now.
” What I got for Christmas? “
Everybody is showing their ‘what I got for Christmas’ on their Instagram/Twitter/Facebook and their blog.
No I will not show here my list of things “what I got for Christmas”? Euhm why not? Well simple ! I didn’t got a present for Christmas.
WHAT? You might be shocked ! But is another reason why I don’t feel all the Christmas spirit like anyone else. For me not a surprise, I’m used to it. Maybe I will get some presents at New Year.
But I’m not expecting some big presents !
So I’m a bit sorry that I can’t watch all your “what I got for Christmas” blogs, it’s making this autistic girl feel sad 😥
Love Lucy xx