A year older … happy birthday to me

Yesterday was my day of the year … my birthday. I guess when you have passed the 30 line you’re not that excited to celebrate it.

So yesterday was a quiet day for me, just a relaxing day at home. I’ve made a quick visit to spoul my colleagues at work with some healthy snacks and candy.

The rest of the day was just ME time 🙂

#newyearresolutions

After eating not well (not healthy) during the holiday season, I had a terrible day yesterday 😉 Just eating so much snacks and unhealthy things again.

But hey, starting a new year resolution on January 1st and have a birthday 3 weeks later is not a good combination.

Like always I start my new years resolutions on February 1st. So much easier to stay focus on the things you want and need in your life according to your list you’ve made.

First thing on my list is … eating healthier and eating Smat by Niomi Smart her book. A new step of eating vegan or almost vegan.

Other new year resolutions I also talked about them a few blogs ago.

So I’m making 2018 MY year & it’s all starting February 1st !

Love Lucy xx

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Just another VANS addict is born

Many years I could resist the trend of Vans, and not buying there Old Skool sneakers. I just was so in love with them, but everytime I said ‘no’ to myself.

I own a pair of old leopard Vans and they were just not fitting correct. So after walking around for an hour they hurted. So that’s the only reason I told myself not to buy a new pair of Vans.

But …

I was still so in love with them

Well, last year I bought my first pair of Vans Old Skool sneakers. Here in Belgium it’s always so hard to find a pair of shoes (trendy shoes) in a size 38. So also with the Vans, they were always sold out so fast in a size 38.

For the moment I saw them in my box (ordered them online at Schoenen Torfs) I was totally in love. I never felt this excited for a pair of shoes.

From the moment I started to wear them, I was in love. Really in love.

A new VANS addict is born

They fit so perfect to my feet, never hurt in the beginning, and I’m so in love with my black Old Skool Vans. They are just perfect with every piece of clothes I have.

After that pair, I ordered another pair and another.

Old Skool with silver

When I saw the pair of black old skool Vans with silver, the new trend for spring/summer, I knew it … those in 38 were mine.

They are just perfect in a different way. I just love to wear them at work and inspire other girls to buy them too (insteat of buying shoes that are now in sale). Why buying a cheaper brand when you can look gorgous with those Vans & rock the world.

So yeah, those Vans are really popular in the store I work. But hey, they are so pretty !

Old Skool pink

From the moment I saw Vans Old Skool sneaker in pink, I planned them on my budget for February. Maybe you remember that blogpost I wrote about what to save for.

Earlier this week I made a reservation to bring over those PINK vans to our store. Online they looked so pretty, so I wanted the ones with the white stripe.

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In this way they look so pretty. So today I went to my store to check on them because they arrived.

I was a bit disappounted when I opened the box. The color is different from the color on the picture above. It’s more of a salmon pink and not the pink tone I was hoping for.

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So those are a NO for me. They looked cute, but it’s just not the right color of pink. So sad, because I really wanted a pair of pink old skool Vans.

Vans SK8 high sneaker pink and rose gold

Because the pink UGG’s were not that pretty, I spend my coupon to buy me those new Vans Sk8 High sneaker. Last Saturday I received the order, but they were a bit ‘yellow’ on the front. So made a new order for the same ones. (Oh yess, when I love something I don’t give up).

These ones are just so beautiful when I wear them. I feel so pretty wearing them and feel so confident in myself having such beautiful sneakers.

So to VANS … perfect job for creating these beauties !

That pink in combination with the rose gold is so beautiful ! Just perfect. I can see myself wearing these all the time at work or just out. That rose gold is the same tone as my Ted Baker Cat purse. Perfect combination.

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This combination will be my key style for spring

Other Vans for the future?

Oh yess, this girl is in love with VANS right now. OKAY OKAY I might be 32 (33 next Saturday the 20th) years old but hey there’s still no age limit on Vans. Right?

Now I’ll be saving money to buy me that black pair of SK8 high sneakers. That will bring my ‘ROCK CHIC’ image back.

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Black Vans SK8 HIGH sneakers by Schoenen Torfs

Shoes, Shoes, Shoes & Shoes

As I’m having a strick budget (till I know what to do to become a freelance copywriter or blogger, next to my job) I will save all the money I have left to buy new shoes.

It’s now January 12th and I haven’t been inside a clothing store like ZARA, H&M, Modemakers or ZEB. Let’s not talk about my store were I work, because I’ve been there the most of the past days.

My plans for 2018, till I got more money to spend, is saving to buy shoes and only shoes to make my outfit look different. I can still were the clothes I bought years ago, and those I still love (with the studs, and country look) but with other pairs of shoes you can create a total new look with a budget.

My shoes (and Vans) are not that expensive than going to a Zara store and leaving with a 300 EUR bill 😮 *shocking* But yess, going to ZARA was always a total attact to my bank account.

Vans

I had planned to save for some Tommy Hilfiger sneakers, but I changed my plans … I want another pair of Vans.

Hoping Vans will release a pair of KAKI Vans in the future or another pair of bordeaux ones. Really love those colors and they make everything perfect!

Your passion?

As you know, my passion is SHOES & fashion. As a girl with autism that’s the only thing that keeps me going through the days.

Do you (on the spectrum or not) have some passion you live for? A passion you can’t live without?

Love Lucy xx

My life after a 6 day workweek

Time to post the story of my life right now. Most of you will think ” working 6 days, what’s the problem?’.

Well, for me it became a big problem over the years.

Worklife

Monday I worked the last day of a period of long workdays, following each other. Here was my shedule for the last weeks starting on December 29,2017 :

December 29 : workday
December 30 : workday
December 31 : workday (yes most Sundays I have to work)
January 1 : day off
January 2 : workday
January 3 : workday
January 4 : day off
January 5: workday (because my colleague was sick)
January 6 : workday
January 7 : workday
January 8 : workday

So the first 8 days of January I had a fulltime job insteat of my parttime job. It was kind of hard but in the beginning it was all fine. When you love your job, you do it anyway.

Last Sunday my workday became a hard day, so much pain I started to have. My muscles hurt, got a headache at work, stomach ache. But I refused to give up and let people know I was about to die on the inside.

Than Monday came, another day at work. Luckely it was a quiet day in the store, and I could just fill in the new collections. So I was kind of happy. But in the afternoon I had a hard time staying focussed and staying ‘happy’.

The rest of this week

Well, I have a week off till Sunday. I have to say I kind of miss work a lot and really wish I could spend my days in the shoe store.

Tuesday
Tuesday I spend almost my whole day in bed. I had so much pain, no energy, and such a bad headache (beginning of migraine). I was grumpy all day. Around 4 pm I found some energy to make some Cinnamon rolls. My body needed some fat and sugary snack *shocking*

Wednesday
Yesterday I went to my new place because my new fridge was going to be delivered. So I had a reason to get out of bed and do something.
I also went to a thriftstore here in my area, but that was such a bad idea ! I mean everything was so dirty and the smell was horrible.

It’s confusing because a lot of people find really good stuff at such a store but this was not a good one I guess.

Other plans I didn’t had yesterday than eating some Cinnamon rolls. OMGosh I’m not
going to tell you how much of those rolls I ate *shaming*

Today

Today I’m not feeling back the way I should be. Still I got no energy, still I have no reason to put some real clothes on besides my H&M loungewear (and big Zara scarf).

Other plans I have are baking some new Cinnamon rolls for tomorrow. I’m going to my colleagues at the store (because I have some orders there, and I have to make my choice for the black or Silver Ted Baker bag).

Autism & working fulltime

After working that fulltime week last week, I now have so much pain and no energy. A reason for me that my psychiatrist forbid me to work a fulltime job in the future. But this parttime job I have now doesn’t pay all the bills when I moving out.

So the upcoming months will be difficult in finding a new job (and having the risk of beeing very ill there), finding a second job I can do from home, OR ??? That last OR is a big question mark. I really have no clue how I’m going to survive the future while living on my own 😮

The big thing is to make a list, a budget list and finding a way to get more money but in a way that is good for my health and that doesn’t have to give the result of me beeing in the hospital for months (like in the past).

Later more, have a great day !

Love Lucy, xx

Autism & making choices

Here I am again … a short blog about making the right choice !

Why this is hard?

Well, here is another store about fashion and making choices. Normally, there was no problem. I just would have bought the 2 bags. Now that I have a budget I have to chose.

It’s not fun but I have to.

When I started to work at my current store in october, there were Some amazing Ted Baker bags!

So when there were plenthy of those bags I didn’t wanted to buy them. Guess What ! Now that we have sale in belgium, and They Almost sold out, I really want them.

Off course So hard to find at this moment in a good condition.

I have the black cat bag from Ted Baker, bought it Earlier, but now I need a good shopper bag.

So I saw the black and pink one, and the silver with black one.

I need to chose 1 but it is So hard 😞

Guess the black one looks better but the details on that bag are gold and one the silver one the details are rose gold. (The details on the cat one are rose gold)

So here are the bags

I also have the silver cat bag to go with the shopper. Black or silver ? Euhm ?

It’s So hard :/

I still have Some few days left to make my descission 🤔

One of the things I hate about my autistic life 😞

Love Lucy xx Have a Nice weekend !

Little quotes … Handlettering

With all the pain I have in my hand it’s do hard to do the thing I really like … Handlettering !

I have So much ideas on What to write and How to write it. But Writing it is a disaster! So much pain, such shaking hands ! Really, really hate it!

So here are Some ideas I have to work out to put in my new house.

Plans are there, but also the pain who keeps me from creating these on big paper to frame it 😞

Here are the ideas, hope one day soon I hope to show you the finished product on my wall. #hopingforabetterfuture

I’m not basic, i’m just me

So proud to be an #aspie girl

Always live your life happy

The perfect life of a shoeseller

Let’s hoop one day these are finished and Looking great on my wall !

Love Lucy xx

So this was my year … 2017

I just can’t believe this … it’s already January 4th. Where did the last 4 days go? It’s going so fast again. *so shocking*

A year full of changes

If I have to discripe my year 2017 with ONLY one word, it will be … CHANGES !

As a girl on the autistic spectrum, I have to say : “I HATE CHANGES”. It’s so hard for me to deal with new things that are coming to me without I asked for it.

So last year was very hard for me. A lot of changes in every part of my life. Here’s some more about everything …

1. Work

At the end of 2016, I got more and more tasks to do at my old office. My work hours and workdays to do all the things didn’t changed. So more work, and more stress.

All that work ended up with longer workdays. I started at my office at 7.30 am and most of the days I left at 5.15 pm. More than I should be there, but there was no alternative.

My old workplace was not in my area, but near Brussels. So in the mornings I had to leave home and take the train at 6.15 am (every single workday). Most of the days I came home at 7 pm.

As I don’t have a drivers licence, I had to take public transportation like the train and the bus. That combination of trains and busses was horrible.

A lot of stress before work of all the people in the train/bus, than a stressy day at work, and going back with more stress because I was always late at home.

In November 2016 most problems started again like the symptons of an autistic burn-out. But in January 2017 I was ready to get some more help, and I was able to have a positive feeling about the new year. I was planning of searching a new job, closer to home.

Than February 2017 came … The announcement of around 70 people will lose their job in March. So horrible. Together with my depression feelings and that new I got very ill (mentally).

In March I knew I was one of the ‘lucky’ people who was going to lose their job in June. When I got the news I was okay with it. About 15 minutes later, when I saw my colleagues I crashed. Than I realized I had to leave all of them behind and leave the work I loved to do.  change # 1

After taking a long break I didn’t had to go back to work, so May 18 was my last day. A month earlier.

During 3 months I got some amazing support from a extern company here in Belgium to find a new job. As an accountant there are still plenthy of jobs in my area, and still receiving invitations for jobs.

I decided that with my autism (together with my psychiatrist and psychologist) I could work a fulltime job in an office the following months. So time for a new plan. I really love fashion and more I really like shoes.

If I had to search for a new job, I wanted to do something where I can share my passion for shoes and fashion with others.  So I went searching for a job as a shoeseller or fashion advisor (I have a diploma ‘fashion advisor’).

After some tests and interviews I found THE MOST AMAZING job in the world. I started to work in my favorite shoestore. I can talk about shoes all day long. I’m now so happy when I can go to work.

This new job (a new big change) change # 2 changed my life in a positive way. I’m so GRATEFUL for the change I got to work for this amazing team of colleagues ! It’s just like working in a store full of family or friends.

Okay … working in a shoestore is so hard when you have less money because you work parttime. You know what I mean … putting a shoelover in a shoestore is like a kid in a candy store ! It’s so hard!

2. Family

Another change in my life last year. In May I had to say goodbye to my grandma. It was so hard, after knowing here my whole life. As a farmers daughter we always were together here.  change # 3

That with losing my job in March was so hard that I crashed at work when I got the message she past away.  But with some great mental help, I had giving it a place. Not having to go back to work was also a great thing.

Now in January I still have some difficult moments, but that’s everything here reminds me of her (she lived her too).

3. Building a house

Can you guess it? Oh yes another big change. After hunting for the perfect house for years, I started to build (let it build by great people) my own house. Just a little house, but it’s all new, and all the things I like are there.

I had to change to create it the way that I wanted it to be. So now I have the outside looking like the grey bricks of the Cinderella castle at Magic Kingdom in Walt Disney World.  (will post some pictures later, as it’s not whole finished at this day).

This is change # 4 , and it’s going to be a big CHANGE in this year. Hoping to move out after living here at home for 33 years! I’m now going to move to my own place with my 2 beloved cats.

I hope we can be happy there all on ourselfs (me and the cats).

4. Starting a blog

In January 2017 I started a blog here on WordPress (called AutiLucy) about my life at that moment and all the problems I had living my autistic life.

During all those months I was not that ‘happy’ blog.

I took me till June to feel better and better and started to live a happier life again. Left all my previous problems behind.

So my life changed, got my happy life back. I never felt that happy in years ! I was so done with posting on my old blog, because it was a daily remember of all the bad things that happend the past months.

A fresh start in my life, so a fresh start in blogging ! change # 5

In october I started to use Twitter again to share my daily story with people who were kind to me and were interested in my store. So also a THANK YOU to you reading my blog at the moment. I means so much to me.

Day after day I feel so much better when I can blog. It’s like I found of way to talk to people, to share my story, found somebody to listen to me.

5. Losing colleagues, friends

In 2017 I lost the colleagues I loved to work with. But when going to a weekly appointement of ‘outplacement’ I felt better. Now that all of that is over, I kind of miss them. change # 6

During the months of 2017 I also lost some friends. First they stopped talking to me, but hey I’m over that now.

I have a few friends and now I have the amazing colleagues where I can talk to. Oh now I’m putting ‘have’, hope that in don’t have to put ‘had’ in a few weeks as my contract is almost finished. But I will still go shop there, so will see them for sure.

6. Losing weight

At the end of all the changes 2017 gave me. It also gave me the change of losing weight again. I lost 17 kg from January till August. Just eating healthier, making healthier choices. change # 7

The weight came on because of all the medication I had to take for my depression / autistic burn-out. I still take some of that medication but I eat less and drink more water.

I’m also became a big fan of Noimi Smart and since I have here first cookbook I’m all into eating better.

I stopped eating meat, and trying to eat more veggies.

As part of my autism, I have some problems with eating. I eat things in an order, start my day with the same breakfast every single day. If I liked something to eat, I can eat that for days, till the moment I had enough.

On days I work till 7 pm I don’t eat a warm (good) meal, but now I trying to eat a healthy wrap with spinach.

7. Parttime job, parttime money

After working a fulltime job for more than 10 years, I started to work a parttime job. I was used to buy the things I like. To buy the parfum and make-up I wanted and that was so good, but so expensive (looking at it now).  change # 8

Now I have half the budget, but not half the costs in my life. Guess that part of bills will never change. You always have to pay the bills and bills are still coming. So shocking. But the truth.

Now I have to look at things I want for weeks, plan it, make a budget and safe a lot of money (a lot of money).

Not buying the shoes you like, when you’re working in a shoestore. SO yeah it’s a hard life having a budget. Plan for 2018 is to find a way to get more money but not having to work outside the house for a fulltime job. Doing a parttime job as extra from here at home, that will work for me. No stress of public transportation which made my days so bad.

8. What about 2018?

Well, 2018 will be another year with big changes. But now I feel happy and for the first time I’m okay with all the new things coming my way. Kind of strange to say that I’m feeling okay with changes in my life.

Here are some changes that are coming to me in the next months:

  • some hospital appointements coming soon, and it’s pretty scary for me.
  • can I stay at my job or not? searching a new job or not?
  • decorating my new home
  • preparing my cats to move
  • moving out
  • hospital for some test for fibromyalgia or ???
  • finding an extra job or find a way to become a freelance blogger or writer, or trying to life from my blog. Can’t live my life with less money because of my fulltime job.
  • starting a budget planner to start safe money

Probably more changes coming, but you’ll be the first to know it.

 

I’m ending my blog here. Enough changes to talk about. In every single part of my life I had to make changes.

Love Lucy xx

If you have some tips on how to get more money as a blogger, freelancer, etc from home, please let me know.

Making choices … pink or cognac UGG boots ?

Making choices is So hard for this girl with autism. Mostly I know What I want for weeks, but when the moment is there to make it official …

I can’t make up my mind.

So for years I wanted Some pink UGG’s bug never could find the right color, the right type.

Now that I found the pink one that are Looking good … now I don’t know which one to buy 😦

Saved money to buy one pair but which one???

Guess the pink one have Some metallic pink at the ends and I Guess I’m going to hate that after a few weeks.

The cognac ones are a kids size 34 (I have a size 38 normal) bug the size is good. Big surprise!

Buying those UGG boots to wear ONLY inside my new house, So They Will be hopefully last a few years.

What do you think? The pink ones or the more everyday look of the cognac ones ??

The pink ones Will cost me 140 euro and the cognac ones Will cost me 112 euro (both with a discount from my work in the shoestore)

Advice please!

Love Lucy xx

Review … shopping at C&A Belgium

Guess most girls like me, have to admit …

WE LOVE SHOPPING

So YESS me to! Fashion & clothes are just my life, and when I can give people advice on what to wear or what to buy … it just makes me so happy !

I have some stores where that I (as an *aspie) can shop and have a great time. Other stores have to advoid and just walk further and not walk in.

Here in Belgium I really like stores like H&M (but only the store in Mechelen, others are a NO), Zara (but only in the mornings on weekdays or Thursday afternoon), and some Belgian stores like Modemakers and Zeb (both are selling the brands like Jacqueline de Yong, Only, Vila Clothes and Vero Moda).

AND

Than you have C&A which is very popular with the older generation but which is horrible to find normal trendy clothes. For kids and men they have some good pieces from time to time.

For people my age, it’s hard to find trendy, goodlooking clothes. When you finally see something that you really like … you only can buy it online because it’s not available in the stores in Flemish Belgium. Which sucks !

I’m one of those people who always walk by a C&A store and I never do the effort to have a look inside the stores. Because I know I wont find one good thing (that is not a basics plain black t-shirt).

Thursday December 28, 2017

Last Thursday I went to a local C&A store here in my area. I went with my brother who needed new clothes.

Just a little note … the store opens at 9.30 am on Thursday and we were there before 10am.

First impression …

Are we going to find some mice or rats here ? 

It was just a mess, a total mess. I mean the store was open for 20 minutes how can it be that messy ?? Do they leave the store at the evening and leave it like that without cleaning, without putting everything back on his place?

Do they know what a Swiffer duster is? Do they know that people don’t buy clothes when the store is that dumping ground?

This was the look at the mens section, women was worst. Also shirts, jackets, pants all of that was put together without order.

After trying on 5 pants with the same size, only one of those pants was good. WTF? All the same size and even all different from size. Oh yess, that’s C&A you have to fit everything !

The moment we left, there was a crane in front of the entrance/exit door. We thought what’s that crane doing here’? 

When we were outside we saw it ! OMGosh they were working on the light screen ‘C&A’ above the entrance/exit. So tools or even the crane could just fall down on the customers ! Not a great time to start working when everybody is entering and leaving the store.

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Picture i took before entering the store. So this was the place where they were working on that C&A lightboard. 

Online shopping at C&A

In the past I did some online shopping at C&A. It was only a hell when I recieved the package.

When I order a 36 I really need a normal 36 like in all other stores. But when you order a EU (normal) size 36 you always get the BE size so a EU 34.  With all the respect but I could never fit my legs in a 34 !!

Many times I mailed them, told it at work but nobody did something about it. So it was NOOOO to buy at C&A online for the rest of my life. As a fashionlover & lifestyleblogger I will never do a review here on my blog on something I like and bought at C&A. So sorry for that!

Other great stores

So why shopping at C&A here in Belgium as you have some other great shops in the area that sell beautiful & trendy clothes. So it will be my pleasure to give you all some reviews about my favorite clothes and favorite stores.

C&A in other countries

In other countries like Germany C&A has sometimes really lovely clothes. Sometimes, not always. But as told … those are never for sale in Belgium.

So when you have kids, have/are a man, a teenager you can find some clothes but when you are like 25-40 it’s kind of impossible to find ‘young’ trendy clothes. The clockhouse brand is too young for when you’re over 25, the Jessica collection in Belgium is more for when you’re 40 or older. And the other collections are just for people who are 60+.

It really time for C&A to get the focus on the young adult group, the group who’s so inspired by the internet, by blogs, by YouTube, by Social Media. Everything who see on those inspiring people, you can’t find at C&A.

Review

I love to give advice to people about fashion and looking good, but I will never go to a C&A store again to give some advice to a young lady (guys are okay).

Tomorrow the sales are starting in Belgium. If their store there looked like that before the sales, than it will be an explosing tomorrow or the next few days.

All people who are looking for sales from 70% off, but what is really the collection from a few years ago.

Next time I need to go to a C&A store for some men clothes … I will go to another store not this one, only if it’s clean (and really safe) to go shopping.

You?

What’s your favorite brand? Do you love to shop at C&A, if so how does that store look?

Love Lucy xx

 

*aspie = girl with aspergers (autism)

New Year Resolutions … To do in 2018

Well, new year … new resolutions to make for the upcoming months.

Most of the years I don’t make a New Years Resolutions list, because I know that I will not follow it.

Last year my life changed so hard, that I wanted  such a list for 2018 !

A thing that’s not on my list is being & staying healthy. WHY? The past months I have so much pain and it’s getting worst every day. So finding help for my pain is on my list. I’m not feeling healthy at the moment, so putting ‘a healthy year’ on my list would not be correct.

What’s on my list? Curious? 

2018 New Year Resolutions

  • Finding a doctor/hospital for all my chronic pains (headache, muscles pains, etc) I really want to know why I can’t do the things I love to do because of all the pain
  • save more money
  • move to my new house with my cats ! Really hope my outdoor cats will be happy with a life as an indoor cat
  • get a second job as a blogger or make my blog better to get some more money. I’m not allowed to work a fulltime job, so want something extra that I can do at home for some extra money
  • NEVER give up hope for a better future, always stay strong and stay positive !

 

So these were my things I want to do in the next 12 months.

Yours?

What are your resolutions for this year? Do you make them or not?

Well, I’m now at home. Normally I had a family party but I was having to much pain to stay, so my parrents dropped me home.
Beeing at home I’m feeling better already ! The atmosphere there was just horrible for this autistic girl on the first day of the year.

Tomorrow, the sales are starting in Belgium so this girl has to work a full day and is not allowed to be sick on the buzziest day of the year.

Love Lucy xx Have a nice FIRST day of January !

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About 2017 …

Well, I started this blog in July and i’m so grateful for all your likes, comments and for following my blog!

Those results are just a dream when I started blogging … SO a BIG

Thank you !

And

Have an amazing 2018 !

Love Lucy (or Liesbeth which is my real name, later more )

Again Thanks ! 💋