What I eat in a day … when I have a bad day ?

A few months ago I posted my first ‘what I eat in a day’. I love routine when it comes to eating and when it comes to making food choices.

A few weeks ago I started to eat more healthier again, to have some more energy during the day. Loosing weight again will be so good, but that will be impossible while I take this much medication every day.

Last monday I had a very bad day, a lot of headache, I had an appointment with my psychologist in the morning, and was so tired.

So here’s what I ate during that day. It’s just to show you what I ate, and it’s not healthy that day, what I know but I want to show you that’s it’s not easy to eat healthy and stay focussed on healthy eating when feeling down and having some issues about my autism. So please be kind, and please to not follow this menu (it’s not something I eat everyday). 

Breakfast

I have some periodes in my life where I eat stuff for a few weeks and then I can eat that anymore. So now I’m in my ‘chocopaste’ periode, and everyday I eat some toast with chocopaste. The one form Lidl, as spending around 5 EUR for the same from Nutella is a no!

So that monday I eat 2 slices of toast, made from white bread as I’m getting sick at the moment eating whole wheat products.

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This pot of 750 grams was only 1,99 EURO in Lidl Belgium, so a better deal than buying Nutella and paying around 5 EURO for the same amount.

Lunch

I had an appointment with the psychologist and when I came home I needed some comfyfood. Some quick lunch meal. Like the quote … when you feel like crap, you eat like crap.

So I made my some mac’n cheese, the Belgium way. It’s without cheddar, and with some ham.

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After this I drunk a cup of coffee with some skimmed milk. I’m just a coffee person, and always need coffee after a warm meal.

Diner

So the first 2 meals of the day where horrible and not healthy (but yummy), I went for a salad for diner. Now we have a special USA Ranch sauce in our store. It just taste like the ones in the USA. I was so happy when I found it in Colruyt, and since then I’m eating a lot of salads. Maybe not that healthy in combination with the ranch sauce all the time, but at least I’m eating my veggies every day !

 

It’s a salad with advocado, mango, egg, cucumber and salad.

Snacks

For snack I had some strawberries, which are in season right now, so a reason to eat more of them. During the day I had some strawberries, and around 8PM I also had some but than with some icing sugar.

 

Drinks

During that day I have to admit to drink a lot of Coke Zero, but also a liter water a day. Besides that I have my daily Ginger Ale, and my daily cup of coffee.

Yess, I might drink a lot, but that’s just me. I drink around 3 liters a day in total, and in summer even more. Even on work days, it’s way more than those 3 liters.

 

So this was my ‘what I eat in a day, when I’m not feeling well physically. So please no judging me for eating this during those days. I know I can eat better, but my ‘autistic mind’ won’t always let me eat better and healthier.  I like some routines, and I eat stuff in periodes like the chocopaste.

It’s possible that I start a ‘jam’ periode or cheese periode next week and than I’m stuck with my stash of chocopaste 😉

But you will always find out here or on my Instagram 😉

Thanks for reading !

Love Lucy xx

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Just an update on my life

So my last blogpost I wrote at the end of March. So scary to find out that it was that long ago.

Well, I also have to admit that there was some few things not going well the past weeks. I thought to give you all an update, and tell out about the next coming months.

Autism, my side effects on life

Being on the autistic spectrum disorder, is (for me) having some issues on just dealing with daily life. It’s kind of hard to find a good balance between worklife, personal life, and social life.

I work a parttime job, most weeks around 20 hours a week, to find some rest in my head. But I really can’t find that rest and peace in my head as I was expecting it would be.

Now I’m kind at the hedge of having a depression again, but now I have some great help from the start to deal with it.

All the stress of daily life, going to work, work with a lot of people, building a house, going to the city (to see the psychologist) and not allowed to go to the shops, having a lot of musscle pain, having psoriasis on my head (and eyebrows) … like how much can one person handle?

For me it’s just so hard to find a right middle on all those things that makes me happy.

Psoriasis

So since September I’ve been diagnosed with psoriasis, and it’s based on my head and now also on my eyebrows. It’s so horrible.

Like it’s so painfull to dye my hair, and it’s even forbidden. NO DYE my hair, so all the grey hairs will be everywhere 😮
Yess, that’s reality when you are over 30 years, so sad.

All those emotions on the treatment, the special products I have to uses daily, the stress of making time for it everyday. And for what ? I will always be under a lot of stress because of my autism, and stress is the main factor on making psoriasis worse.

Like it’s an endless circle.

Muscle pain

Since a few months/years (I’m bad with times) I have some serious pains everywhere in my body.

In the hospital (where I had an appointment for my psoriasis) they told me to go to another doctor who’s specialised in reumathism, and artritis.

With that doctor I had an appointement in march, just a 10 minutes talk. I had to go back to the hospital to do some tests which I did on the 20th.

A few days later I got the results and she told me nothing was wrong and that was it. No further tests, no appointment to talk about the results … just nothing. I was so angry, and had so many emotions going on I couldn’t place.

My normal doctor, psychiatrist, psychologist, all think I have fibromyalgia but in the hospital they would do further tests … I really hate it when thinking about it.

So now I got some telephone numbers of other reumatologists in my area to go for a second opinion and some more tests.

AND HERE’S THE PROBLEM NOW

I got some telephone numbers, I mean telephone numbers ??? Like I hate to call people, I hate to call doctors and tell everything over the phone. Searched all the internet for some more details, but it looks like that doctor only have a phone to contact her. So now I’m under some more stress to call them next Tuesday. Today is impossible, because I’m just not ready.

How I see the future?

These days I’m having high stresslevels because soon I’ll be moving out, and will be living on my own. A whole house just for me, a new neighbourghood, new people, new way to go to work, new busses, new sounds, … Everything will be NEW !!

I really hate changes, I really hate the word NEW (not when it come’s to new shoes, but that’s something different, right). Shoes are my thing, the thing I like, the thing I can talk about for hours, or just look for new styles for hours. Oh boy, here I go again talking about shoes, so sorry! 

So the next few weeks will be filled with all new things, a lot of stress, a lot of pain (headaches, muscles pains), a lot of work in the shoe store, moving my things, figuring out what it will be living on my own and with a budget.

That last part will be such a hard thing to deal with, paying for everything while I work parttime and have to pay my house, and all the monthy costs with only one small paycheck.

Most of the days I think I can beat my emotions and think the future will be so good, but other days I’m getting such depressed feelings about it and feelings of giving up. I’m getting back to the ‘one moment I feeling happy and one moment I feel down’ period.

BUT like I said now I have a whole team who’s there for me, and hope you will be here to reading my story and helping me out.

Thanks for reading !

Greets Lucy xx