After a break … I’m back with the blog

“Life is a blog, everyday you write a new story”

With this quote in mind I started this blog, in the summer of last year. To write about my personal feelings on beeing on the spectrum and getting some bad comments about it.

Even now I get reactions ‘you’re not Autistic, you don’t look like the dude from Rainman’. Well, I’m on the spectrum but I’m totally different than ‘Rainman’. I can communicate, I just love fashion and shoes, I’m in with what’s going on with life around me, I can you shopping and pick something that’s fits me, I can clean, I can cook (with recipes), etc…

BUT

I have problems fitting in when I’m the new one, I can’t make new friends without sharing a big love for shoes or Disney(Land), I need a lot of lists, a good planner, can’t stand in a waiting line, can’t go to concerts, can’t work in an office with a lot of people … and the list is kind of never ending.

The past months were like crazy. Moving out, working all summer, getting a dog to stay for a week, now getting a cat, while I still have mine at my parents home.
So yeah, a lot of changes, and a lot of changes will still come in the next weeks. But HEY I can handle this !

With that said ….

Welcome to my blog, or welcome back to read some more stuff about fashion, lifestyle

Moving out …

So beeing here on my own with a cat called Tijger (he’s the gast and react like he’s the king of this house), is very nice.

The first 2 months were kind of hard, but now with this cat in the house I finally can call this home my home.

The only thing needed in my house was a cat, not the furniture !

Country music all day long, drawning, just having some more me space is really nice after 30 years 🙂 !

So for the future things look great here, never thought I would say this out loud or just put it here on my blog.

Work

I’m now without a voice at the moment. That really sucks ! I miss work, really want to work but I can’t till Monday. My voice is better, I can go outside but I just must avoid little kids because they could get it too. The ironic thing … while helping a sick kid in store last week I have to stay at home all week.

Yesterday I went to do some grocery shopping, because I needed some precious fresh air. Well yeah felt so tired after but glad I could you outside and smell the after summer fall weather again !

So next week I can’t wait to go back to work before I’m on vacation for a week. I kind of really really really love beeing a shoeseller and give people advice about their shoes.

Like this season when Dr. Martens are back in fashion and the Fila Disruptors. Oh the good old 90s are back !

Wearing the Buffalo boots or shoes again this season … well I still love them but I’m not convinced yet. I have ordered a pair at work but really don’t know untill I fit them.

Oh yess, doing your passion every day you can go to work. What is better than that ! Nothing can beat the amazing feeling I have when working in that incredible team!

The past days

So while beeing sick I managed to go grocery shopping. Okay I was grumpy because it was too crowded and off course had to go twice as I forgot some things.
Even with a list I forget things when there are a lot of people in the store.

I even went to Ikea just to pick up some items I really miss in my new house. Everytime I was cooking or baking I had to invent because I was missing the equipement in the kitchen like big spoons etc.

Guess most childern where out of school and had the same idea to go to Ikea. OMGosh. Luckely I had a list and only took everything on the list but I was so happy to be home.

Here are some pictures of the new Ikea store we have here at Zaventem, Belgium. The recently redecorated the store and it really looks beautiful but it’s such a different not knowing where everything was.

The large 3 sit couch is still on my wishlist 🙂 even as those lamps for 12,99 each. Guess I need around 20 lamps like that so budget wise it will still be on the list for a while.

Eating HEALTHY

I needed some fysio for my right hand because the pain kills me everyday. I have fibromyalgia, but this was apart from that.

So my fysio told me to stop eating carbs, stop eating sugar and quit drinking cola zero. Sorry for the Coca Cola Company but I almost drank 2L of that soda everyday 😮

I started with small steps on September 17, had a bad day September 20 when I had an event at work, but ever since that one bad day I made it to live without sugar, carbs, and most of all without Coke Zero. OMG is that last one such a positive influence on my budget at the grocery store.

Lost about 4kg, but I can’t really see the difference yet. I guess that will come in a few weeks when I’m totally off all those products !

Today was another bad, cheat, day. I went away for the day to shoot some pictures and ended up at Mc Donalds. I took just a normal hamburger with a bacon and cheese salad. Well, okay it’s not good. It’s wel better than eating a Big Mac, a hamburger and a large Coke Zero (no fries, as I hate fries ! yess living in the land of fries and I hate them).

For dinner I still have some leftover pumpkinlasagne, like the way Steffi Vertriest made it. Very good, and lots of pumpkin. Totally love to eat pumpkins every single day.

Let’s end this blog

I’m so proud of myself to renew this blog. I had a premium account here on wordpress but I made the discission to go back to the free one. The last months I hadn’t had much energy to put in this blog. Now I got the free version again I’m totally back.

The lay-out looks nothing like my style but this temporary.

So I really hope you all liked reading this blogpost, and I hope that you will come back to my page for more. If you want you can also like my blog and set it in your favorites.

For more frequent and daily updates on life and on fashion/shoes … please check out my Instagram page @autistccountry

Now blog, means a new ending to this posts …. I can now close every blog with a little note and using my real name insteat of Lucy. NOW i’m ready to share this with the whole world !

Liesbeth, it is !

So let’s end this in a good way…

Lot’s of love and have a great weekend xx Liesbeth

 

 

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All the stress … it’s freaking me out !

So here I’m again … a few weeks past since my last blogpost. The plan of blogging more, is not been a succes over the past weeks.

I’ve noticed I’ve been active more on Instagram by posting pictures of moments during the day but more than that … is a plan that’s kind of frozen right now.

I work only 3 days a week but I have no time to take a break from live, go on vacation, go away for a few days. Every day is filled with stress, and more stress.
So bad it has blocked me at home from doing nice stuff, stuff I really want to do.

But my autistic life has blocked me, and I don’t now how to take the rest I need right now.

Moving day

Well, the biggest factor of stress is the fact I’m moving next week … THE 4THE OF JULY ! As an America lover I needed this date as an officially moving date.

So I still need to pack a lot of stuff, a lot of clothes, my Disney collection and so much more … but I’m totally missing the drive right now. The drive of cleaning out my room and pack the stuff I need to take with me.

Right now here in Belgium the weather is really summer, like 30C degrees and we will having this temperature untill next weekend !

Sales

Since a few days we have the sale started in Belgium. So things I had on my wishing list are now for sale with a big discount. But as I just finished building my own house, I kind of have a budget for shopping right now. This fashionista is having a hard time not be able to buy what I love when I want it.

This gives me so much stress, and it’s so hard to clean my head with all the emotions because I missed that pair of shoes of handbag I wanted to buy 😥

All the mental help I get right now, is not enough so  I can’t wait for my next session in 2 weeks. Hope I’ll be able to survive till July 16.

Cat

My cat has the intention to take a little summer vacation right now. Which is so horrible, knowing he’s somewhere in the fields behind our house and that harvest season started.

Yesterday he came home for some food and water and now it’s already afternoon and still haven’t seen him today. It’s freaking me out but it’s a farm cat so I can’t do a thing about it. He’s used to this life so he can’t live inside the house all day.

Summer trips

Well, as living on a budget I can’t go on vacation to Florida or take another Disney Cruise for the next years. So sad, because I always lived for vacations, the Mickey Way. I’m living close to Disneyland Paris, well it’s “only” a 3,5 hour drive to Disneyland Paris.

Trips are now trips to the seaside here in Belgium, which you can’t call it paradise. The water is durty, too much people, too much buildings, etc.

Last Tuesday we went to Oostende (pictures on my Instagram page @autisticcountrygirl), and it all started with a train delay of 55 minutes (all minutes we extra spend INSIDE the train). We went to the beach, ate some Mc Donalds, and went to see the Mercator Ship before going back home.

I was so stressed out that I needed to see some shops and spend some money. BAD me I know, because I always having a hard time buying stuff I don’t need when stressed out. Luckely there was a Flying Tiger in Oostende, so it wasn’t that expensive.

Other trips

Well, besides moving and sleeping a lot in my new house, I don’t have plans this summer to go on other big trips. Besides a trip to visit the city of Hasselt next week.

Other trips when be spending a day in Mechelen, my absolute favorite city here in Belgium. It’s so pretty, pretty as the big cities as Bruges or Gant but way smaller and so much nicer.

I really like Antwerp a lot, but it’s a big bigger and since there’s a Primark it’s so buzzy when you have to take the train to the city. So I kind of avoid that right now.

The city of Brussels is horrible, I really hate that city. I worked there for 2 years, but I hated every single day. When you visit some shops, most of them are a total mess. All the toeristic things there in Brussels I don’t like, and everything is so far away. Taking the metro is horrible when you have autistic. In Paris I don’t have a problem with taking the metro because it’s logic, in Brussels it’s horrible to find the right metro, tram or bus.

Plans for my blog … in the next days

  • making a blog with pictures from my visit to Planckendael on June 18, for the press event of Toerisme for Autisme in Belgium.
    Planckendael is just 15 minutes away from my house but I haven’t visit it for 21 years !!!
    I’ll explain in one of my next blogs.
  • posting about my favorite styles for the next season. As a shoeseller I have the first views on the new trends that are coming to our store and to the webshop. I’ve been saving some money to spend on the new collections and last week I bought some of the things for next season.
  • Getting my life back together after moving out
  • life when I moved out
  • Summer trips, or events nearby here in Belgium
  • starting to draw again, not easy with fibromyalgie and painfull hands but I can do this

Instagram

If you want to read more on a daily basis from me, you can check out my Twitter (@autisticcountry) or my Instragram (@autisticcountrygirl).

But I’ll make it up here to by posting more blogposts and aswer earlier on you replies.

Thanks for all of you support over the last weeks by liking my posts ! 

Love you all xx

How is life rightnow ? Therapy, therapy, therapy

Well yeah, the never ending story of my life I guess. 

THERAPY

 The whole thing with having autism, having psoriasis, having fibromyalgia, having meltdowns, … got it’s breakpunt reached.

I never stopped therapy sessions with my psychologist, or psychiatrist, but now I’m going a few times more again.

Everybody is saying you have a great job, a great new house, great family … ‘ you can’t have a mental problem’. Well I’m sure have !

For me everything has to be perfect, so it’s so damn hard if you can’t create, can’t drawn, can’t shop like you always have in a perfect way. I can’t color my hair anymore, getting new pills who are making me fat (okay I don’t eat healthy all day but that’s never get’s me as FAT as since I started to take those new pills).

So yesterday, I had an appointement with my therapist and we had a great talk. So she gave me some homework to deal with the next few weeks. One of them is starting to eat healthy the whole day long.

Eating healthy and planning what I’m going to eat the next days is so hard. Because I don’t know what I want to eat tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.

Doing some groceries every day, is a total NOOOOOO … so now I have a huge struggle in front of me about food, about making better choises.

I took my favorite cook book by the hand and this evening I started to bake the Bananabread, like NIOMI SMART. She posted a video ‘what I eat in a day’ a few days ago on her YouTube channel, so I was inspired to make that to.

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So here it is! I never get this golden brown look like she has but it’s sooo delicious. 

I now have breakfast for tomorrow. Okay I took  slices as a snack already. I just couldn’t resist. I hope I can eat this tomorrow morning without my chocopaste (I’m still in my eating chocopaste period). So hope I will be okay eating this tomorrow and not having toast with chocopaste.

Tomorrow is a workday, so it’s going to be a salad for me insteat of a sandwich with some good old Dutch cheese.

I have to do this, I have to eat healthy to stay like this and not getting fatter because of the pills. If I don’t do this, and nothing will fit me, than I’ll be back on track with feeling despressed (story of my life, nothing new).

Please be kind and love your support, here on my blog, on my Instragram (@autisticcountrygirl) or Twitter (@autisticcountry).

**** Stay Smiling ****

Love lucy xx
(maybe it’s that time to start blogging under me real firstname soon)

What I eat in a day … when I have a bad day ?

A few months ago I posted my first ‘what I eat in a day’. I love routine when it comes to eating and when it comes to making food choices.

A few weeks ago I started to eat more healthier again, to have some more energy during the day. Loosing weight again will be so good, but that will be impossible while I take this much medication every day.

Last monday I had a very bad day, a lot of headache, I had an appointment with my psychologist in the morning, and was so tired.

So here’s what I ate during that day. It’s just to show you what I ate, and it’s not healthy that day, what I know but I want to show you that’s it’s not easy to eat healthy and stay focussed on healthy eating when feeling down and having some issues about my autism. So please be kind, and please to not follow this menu (it’s not something I eat everyday). 

Breakfast

I have some periodes in my life where I eat stuff for a few weeks and then I can eat that anymore. So now I’m in my ‘chocopaste’ periode, and everyday I eat some toast with chocopaste. The one form Lidl, as spending around 5 EUR for the same from Nutella is a no!

So that monday I eat 2 slices of toast, made from white bread as I’m getting sick at the moment eating whole wheat products.

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This pot of 750 grams was only 1,99 EURO in Lidl Belgium, so a better deal than buying Nutella and paying around 5 EURO for the same amount.

Lunch

I had an appointment with the psychologist and when I came home I needed some comfyfood. Some quick lunch meal. Like the quote … when you feel like crap, you eat like crap.

So I made my some mac’n cheese, the Belgium way. It’s without cheddar, and with some ham.

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After this I drunk a cup of coffee with some skimmed milk. I’m just a coffee person, and always need coffee after a warm meal.

Diner

So the first 2 meals of the day where horrible and not healthy (but yummy), I went for a salad for diner. Now we have a special USA Ranch sauce in our store. It just taste like the ones in the USA. I was so happy when I found it in Colruyt, and since then I’m eating a lot of salads. Maybe not that healthy in combination with the ranch sauce all the time, but at least I’m eating my veggies every day !

 

It’s a salad with advocado, mango, egg, cucumber and salad.

Snacks

For snack I had some strawberries, which are in season right now, so a reason to eat more of them. During the day I had some strawberries, and around 8PM I also had some but than with some icing sugar.

 

Drinks

During that day I have to admit to drink a lot of Coke Zero, but also a liter water a day. Besides that I have my daily Ginger Ale, and my daily cup of coffee.

Yess, I might drink a lot, but that’s just me. I drink around 3 liters a day in total, and in summer even more. Even on work days, it’s way more than those 3 liters.

 

So this was my ‘what I eat in a day, when I’m not feeling well physically. So please no judging me for eating this during those days. I know I can eat better, but my ‘autistic mind’ won’t always let me eat better and healthier.  I like some routines, and I eat stuff in periodes like the chocopaste.

It’s possible that I start a ‘jam’ periode or cheese periode next week and than I’m stuck with my stash of chocopaste 😉

But you will always find out here or on my Instagram 😉

Thanks for reading !

Love Lucy xx