A day at our countryside – May 27, 2018

On Sunday May 27, I posted a lot of pictures through the day on my Instragram (@autisticcountrygirl).
I promised to write a whole blog about how I felt that day, with a little delay …
Here it is!
Hope you all enjoy some countrylife of Belgium.

Normally I have to work every Sunday so I can’t never plan a thing on doing with my family like going to some events, special occassions, shops, festivals … I made the descission of working the greatest job in the world so you know you have to miss most of those things.

Most of those things are crowded, tooo many people on the same place, to much noices, to loud music etc. So in one way it’s better to stay a day at work helping others having a great day off.

Strawberry festival

On May 27 I got a free Sunday, without asking for it. On that day we had an Strawberry event here in my local area. Moving out soon, so time to do something here.

It was more of an information event about local products than for the strawberry itself. At 3PM there was a ‘world record Milkshake drink’ but there weren’t that much people to hit the goal of 2000 people (they had like 1200 people drinking at the same time).

The milkshake itself was just horrible. They said it was made with local milk and with some fresh strawberries. YEAH right, totally not made with fresh strawberries but with a powder. As the shake was seedless and very light pink. And it was sooooooooo sugary.

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Sooo Sorry ‘ONS’ but this was not REAL strawberry ! 

The event took place in my old school, so it was nice to see it again. They did a great job in making the place look nice for the public and for visitors. I remember, from beeing a kid, that it was always forbitten to step on the place where we went. Or just sit on the old iron ‘attraction’.

It’s look sooo old, but just looked like I remembered. So it was 20 years ago in such bad condition as now. Just for information, it wasn’t a new one when I went to school there 😉

Look for yourself, but for me it still have something of a horrormovie seeing it (remembering how it looked when it was dark in winter).

Here’s the park when we weren’t allowed to step one foot on it, but now it’s open for public every single day. So some changes were good, because it’s so beautiful and quiet walking there.

And here are some pictures of my old school, almost sad to say nothing changed in those 20 years (well 21)

And here are some pictures of the other part of the park where they put a smal farm with apple trees

The ‘strawberry’ event was more like a market with local products

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Well, it’s not wrong with all those other local products … BUT … when this #aspiegirl hears ‘strawberry festival’ she wants an explotion with strawberries. And not just one thing to taste horrible milkshake and another one to buy plane fresh strawberries. But more like pastries with strawberries, desserts, art, … just things WITH STRAWBERRY included. 

After we saw the whole market, drunk are ‘milkshake’, visit the event inside about World War 1 … it was time for a little ride with some Belgium Work horses ‘Belgisch trekpaard’. 

Here are some pictures first … story will follow below

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Our ‘taxi’ has arrived … 2 beautiful horses 

Here are some pictures I took during the trip through ouw countryside. The ride took me to places I never seen before, while I live here for 33 years. How is that possible? It was a shocking moment, but now I found some beautiful spots here to go on a bike trip or walk. 

Oh and off course, no long trip without RODNEY ATKINS

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Most places have bords with ‘deer’ crossing the street. Here on the countryside we have them with COWS crossing the street. So strange to always remember the big city of Louvain is only 10 minutes away from that place 😮 (and Brussels only 25 mins) and still you are in the countryside with ‘cows crossing the streets’. 

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So here’s the story about that trip. I was expecting a short trip around the school and in the close neighbourghood. Well I was sooooooo wrong !

We left with the horses around 15.45PM at the school and the trip will be around 1,5 hours to be back.

It was an extreemly hot day, and than 1,5 hours on the road with horses. Well, sometimes you have to do the things your family wants to do and follow them.

The trip took us to a close local brewery, we had the opportuinity to get off and visit it but I refused and stayed on. So everybody followed me. I was not in the mood to visit a brewery and taste that beer, as I don’t drink beer.

After the 5 minute stop, to change some passengers, we went back on the roads … with the horses. Poooooooor horses, so hot and doing such hard work.

Next stop was another visit to a local farm, a PORK farm. The place was a place we knew so we didn’t went outside in the heat and risking not having a place back to the school. The stop took more than 20 minutes as the horses needed water and some rest. Who could blame them, in that heat ???

And then it was time for the last trip on the road with the horses to the school again.

We came back at 6PM, so we spend more than 2 hours riding those horses with the ‘huifcar’ (sorry don’t know the word in English for the car/pickup/ we were in. So if you know the word please let me know.

Luckely I had my iPhone to take some pictures and listen to Rodney Atkins, well some country when beeing in the countryside, otherwise I had given up or even not went on that trip. And if I knew it would take more than 2 hours, I refused. But I have to admit, kind of glad I did.

Going to end this here. Just had a great day, but the organization of this event could be so much effecient or better if they had a shorter trip planned for the horses in this heat. Just a trip through the park, through the village, arond the close fields etc. But not a trip to 2 things that are so far away from everything.

I’m also glad nothing changed at the organization, organizing is not their greatest (worked for them 10 years ago). 

THE DAYS AFTER

I had this huge autistic meltdown, I could get out of my bed for 3 days. I had to convince myself to go to work but it was a terrible day. BUT I stayed strong and stayed the whole work day.
The rest of the week I was feeling a bit down, not having energy, not having the feeling of doing something good, etc.

That’s why I’m writing this blog about May 27 now, and not last week. So sorry 😉

Hope you enjoyed some countylife here. OH  BTW we do have tractors here, and not only horses to do all the work :p

Love, Lucy xx

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Just another VANS addict is born

Many years I could resist the trend of Vans, and not buying there Old Skool sneakers. I just was so in love with them, but everytime I said ‘no’ to myself.

I own a pair of old leopard Vans and they were just not fitting correct. So after walking around for an hour they hurted. So that’s the only reason I told myself not to buy a new pair of Vans.

But …

I was still so in love with them

Well, last year I bought my first pair of Vans Old Skool sneakers. Here in Belgium it’s always so hard to find a pair of shoes (trendy shoes) in a size 38. So also with the Vans, they were always sold out so fast in a size 38.

For the moment I saw them in my box (ordered them online at Schoenen Torfs) I was totally in love. I never felt this excited for a pair of shoes.

From the moment I started to wear them, I was in love. Really in love.

A new VANS addict is born

They fit so perfect to my feet, never hurt in the beginning, and I’m so in love with my black Old Skool Vans. They are just perfect with every piece of clothes I have.

After that pair, I ordered another pair and another.

Old Skool with silver

When I saw the pair of black old skool Vans with silver, the new trend for spring/summer, I knew it … those in 38 were mine.

They are just perfect in a different way. I just love to wear them at work and inspire other girls to buy them too (insteat of buying shoes that are now in sale). Why buying a cheaper brand when you can look gorgous with those Vans & rock the world.

So yeah, those Vans are really popular in the store I work. But hey, they are so pretty !

Old Skool pink

From the moment I saw Vans Old Skool sneaker in pink, I planned them on my budget for February. Maybe you remember that blogpost I wrote about what to save for.

Earlier this week I made a reservation to bring over those PINK vans to our store. Online they looked so pretty, so I wanted the ones with the white stripe.

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In this way they look so pretty. So today I went to my store to check on them because they arrived.

I was a bit disappounted when I opened the box. The color is different from the color on the picture above. It’s more of a salmon pink and not the pink tone I was hoping for.

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So those are a NO for me. They looked cute, but it’s just not the right color of pink. So sad, because I really wanted a pair of pink old skool Vans.

Vans SK8 high sneaker pink and rose gold

Because the pink UGG’s were not that pretty, I spend my coupon to buy me those new Vans Sk8 High sneaker. Last Saturday I received the order, but they were a bit ‘yellow’ on the front. So made a new order for the same ones. (Oh yess, when I love something I don’t give up).

These ones are just so beautiful when I wear them. I feel so pretty wearing them and feel so confident in myself having such beautiful sneakers.

So to VANS … perfect job for creating these beauties !

That pink in combination with the rose gold is so beautiful ! Just perfect. I can see myself wearing these all the time at work or just out. That rose gold is the same tone as my Ted Baker Cat purse. Perfect combination.

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This combination will be my key style for spring

Other Vans for the future?

Oh yess, this girl is in love with VANS right now. OKAY OKAY I might be 32 (33 next Saturday the 20th) years old but hey there’s still no age limit on Vans. Right?

Now I’ll be saving money to buy me that black pair of SK8 high sneakers. That will bring my ‘ROCK CHIC’ image back.

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Black Vans SK8 HIGH sneakers by Schoenen Torfs

Shoes, Shoes, Shoes & Shoes

As I’m having a strick budget (till I know what to do to become a freelance copywriter or blogger, next to my job) I will save all the money I have left to buy new shoes.

It’s now January 12th and I haven’t been inside a clothing store like ZARA, H&M, Modemakers or ZEB. Let’s not talk about my store were I work, because I’ve been there the most of the past days.

My plans for 2018, till I got more money to spend, is saving to buy shoes and only shoes to make my outfit look different. I can still were the clothes I bought years ago, and those I still love (with the studs, and country look) but with other pairs of shoes you can create a total new look with a budget.

My shoes (and Vans) are not that expensive than going to a Zara store and leaving with a 300 EUR bill 😮 *shocking* But yess, going to ZARA was always a total attact to my bank account.

Vans

I had planned to save for some Tommy Hilfiger sneakers, but I changed my plans … I want another pair of Vans.

Hoping Vans will release a pair of KAKI Vans in the future or another pair of bordeaux ones. Really love those colors and they make everything perfect!

Your passion?

As you know, my passion is SHOES & fashion. As a girl with autism that’s the only thing that keeps me going through the days.

Do you (on the spectrum or not) have some passion you live for? A passion you can’t live without?

Love Lucy xx

2018 … Things I’ll be saving for

So as 2017 is almost over …  it’s time to look forward to 2018. A new year, a new life, a new lifestyle, new house etc.

As an autistic girl I really hate changes in my life/days … so guess 2018 will be so hard.
BUT
That doesn’t mean I don’t look forward to this new year.

As you might know from earlier … I’m a lifestyleblogger on a budget. So now for the first time in my life I really have to plan everything before buying it ! Insteat of just going to ZARA, Schoenen Torfs, H&M etc., I have to wait till there’s enough money in my jar (yess I’ve made a maison jar to collect my money).

Preparing for the new season …

So now were are in the beginning of winter, I’m looking at some collections for the new season. Every year I start buying new collections at the end of january.

I have to admit, that I already bought a pair of new Old Skool Vans (silver & black) in November.

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They are the Old Skool but in a modern version. I really love them, but now I have them at work for when my other shoes hurts during the day.
Vans Old skool Silver

Other things I bought the past weeks are a Ted Baker bag and my gold loafers I wore on Christmas day.

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Golden loafers Marco Tozzi by Schoenen Torfs

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This is one of my favorite items, a black Ted Baker bag with cat ears. The combination of a black bag and this cat theme made me buy it. I bought with a discount, so got it for around 45 EUR insteat of 55,95

SO yeah, it was a great deal. As it’s a plastic bag, the quality is not that great. It’s a very hard plastic, so when you put a lot of heavy stuff in the bag it will brake. Like I did with mine 😥 Offcourse I can take it back to store to get fixed but I’m okay with it, it’s now a collectors item for me.

Sad, this item of the spring and summer collection I can’t use.

Ted Baker, oh yess again

This morning I bought another item from the new spring and summer collection from Ted Baker. In my handbag I have pencils all over it, I never can’t find my pens, and my pencils are always broken.

So insteat of buying new pencils all the time, I thought it was time to buy a pencil case. A good, decent pencil case to hold every pen & pencil and so they won’t brake again.

Ted Baker has a new pencil case (a really small bag) but it’s a hard plastic and super strong to protect my pencils. They were on sale in black and pink.

The pink one I bought this morning…

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The same one in black is on his way to the store. I needed 2 of them, one for the pencils (and drawning materials) and one for my pens.

THINGS I’LL BE SAVING FOR …

So I’ve started to put a list with things I really want for the next season. I went to (a part) of my wardrobe and actually I don’t need that much new summer clothes. With some new shoes and a bag, I can wear them another season.

I can invest in some great pieces, but only if I plan when I’m going to buy them !

Most of the things I saw for the new season, I found online at the online store of my favorite shoe store here in Belgium.

Want to see what’s on my saving list for the upcoming weeks/months?

Here they are … let’s start with some shoes (to make my outfit look new & fresh again), and end with bags to make it more special.

Shoes

In spring and summer I have a hard time to find some great shoes. Mostly I wear my white Converse All Stars and that’s it (wear some other Converse I have in my collection).

For the first time EVER, I mean like EVERRRR, I bought some Vans Old Skool sneakers this year. You might look surprised and have something like ‘WHAAAAAT’? Yess, you found the girl who doesn’t own a pair of Vans !

So this year I bought a pair of black Old Skool Vans, but they are now old and not are looking that great to wear in a shoe store all day. So on my list for this spring and summer, I have on first place a pair of new black ones.

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Other shoes on my list are … VANS. Oh yess, another pair of Vans. Yess, I’m in love with these shoes.

But for this moment, I just can’t decide with type I really want. They are both pink, both looking great but in one way they are different (the white stripe).
So I’m still in doubt about which pair. What do you think? The one with the white or without the white?

Guess the ones with the white are just a little more ‘fresh’ looking for spring?
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Vans Old Skool Pink – totally pink

The last pair of shoes (after seeing all my clothes in my wardrobe) are the ones below from Tommy Hilfiger. Besides my pair of white Converse, I never owned a pair of total white sneakers.

These are more saying ‘chic’ than the Vans ones which just go with everything. The ones from Tommy I can only wear with clothes I have with something gold.

This is actually the first year I find some really nice summer shoes, that are not Converse or Winter Timberland I wear all year round.

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Tommy Hilfiger – white with golden stars These are the new Tommy Hilfiger I saw in the store. At first look I was not so sure about it, just because of the details. But after fitting them a few times in the store and checking my clothes earlier. I now these would look great with a lot of my dresses and jeans.

So than I have a pair silver Vans to wear with silver jewelry and a pair with golden details to wear with all my golden jewelry.

Handbags & bags

So I’ve told you about the shoes I’ll be saving for the next season.
BUT
I also have some bags I really want for the new season.

I’m not such a hugh fan of handbag, besides my collection of Fossil bags which are totally my favorite ones. I will never throw them away. Fossil isn’t a brand which is sold in the store I work, so I found it hard to wear them to work.

For the summer I found some really nice golden handbags in our store from Kisses of Pearl. But after looking at my clothes I have, the shoes I want. I really I’m not that convinced of buying them.

Guess they will be to classic to go with the converse and the gold will look different on the bag than on the Tommy shoes. And golden handbag will not go with the silver & black Vans I bought earlier.

WOW I’m so surprised of myself ! I’m mostly I’m an impuls buyer, but now I’m really looking to find the BEST piece to wear longer and have longer in my collection than just one season (mostly a couple of weeks). #feelingproud

Ted Baker

Since I have that cat looking handbag of Ted Baker I’m more and more a fan of this brand. BUT I promised myself … if I buy another Ted Baker I’ll invest in a leather one not a plastic for me again!

So today I was in the store and put them in reservation for me. So now I have some time to think about it, think about it, and THINK about it.

First one is this shopper leather shopper bag, but then a black one with pink on the inside. This silver one will have to exact same effect on me as the golden bags I was talking about before. So NOOOO to the Silver bag.

Guess I put one of the last items in reservation because I can’t find the black one on the internet at this moment. So it’s this one but in black and fuxia pink on the inside.
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This will be a shopper bag to take to work and take my lunch and papers with me. This bag I can’t take with me all day or when I just have to go grocery shopping. I never can’t find my wallet and phone on time when I have to pay (because of all the stuff in collect in such big bags).

For my wallet & phone I bought another little bag. Another Ted Baker bag, and also a leather one.

It’s quite an investment but I think (and I really hope that it’s great quality) and it will be an item I will have for years. Because it’s just going to be a part of me. Curious about the bag?
Well here it is … a black leather CAT bag !

Oh guess I’m a real cat lady, and a big lover of BLACK cats ! Wearing this bag will mean I have my black cat always with me.

I think that this is such a great vallue for my money and worth saving money for. Guess saving will be so much easier when I put a picture on my cards and my jar from this bag. Then I know why I can spend money on clothes, because I really want to have THIS BAG.

Black cat bag TED BAKER

In winter time Ted Baker had another collection with ‘cat’ shaped bags a silver and a burgundy one. Really was in love with them, and I was hoping for them to get on sale. But now they are on sale, I prefer this black one. Black is always a better idea for a bag !

Last season Ted Baker bags…

Everything?

Yess, everything ! This was everything on my list, just 3 pair of sneakers (to wear for the now season at work most of the time) and than 2 beautiful bags. For now this will such a good reason to save money because they are such beautiful pieces!

It will make my outfits as new, and make me stop spend so much money at ZARA (sorry Zara, always love you), H&M, Modemakers (shop here in Belgium) and Zeb (another store here in Belgium).

Now I’m going to print that black cat bag and put it everywhere where I have money !

Winter sale

Okay, officially the winter sales start in Belgium on January 2nd. Great day that I have to work, and can’t go to the sales !

For my new house I need a pair of UGG style boots to wear inside the house, because my stairs is to dangerous to were slippers or slip-on shoes.

So now I’m in doubt about the color of UGG I would buy, I hope I can have those UGG for years (like the pair of grey boots I already have for more than 5 years).

As it’s for inside the house, I’m still thinking about the pink one or the cognac brown ones with the bow. Another investment, as I’m not planning to buy new UGG for the upcoming years !

These are the two I’m thinking about …

 

And you?

Are you already thinking about the new season for clothes, shoes, bags? Or I’m I (again) one of the girls that is to early with planning the new season?

What do you think about the items I’ve been selecting for spring/summer?

Love to read your comments !

Please note that every pictures I used comes from the site of Schoenen Torfs a famous (the best) store for shoes and bags in Belgium.
Guess most of the items I like are also for sale on international sites who will ship to you. 

Love Lucy xx

The day after Christmas

So here it is … The day after Christmas ! Yesterday I was hoping for this day to come, now I want it do be over !

When your body is killing yourself !

As a girl with autism, one of the things I really hate is the holiday season in December. Really like the past week, and the upcoming week.

How about Christmas day?

Well, I can be short … it was a horrible day ! We had some family over for the afternoon and dinner time.

Everybody was screaming, yelling insteat of talking and that all before drinking alcohol. So I start to watch some episodes of Fuller House on mij iPhone.

That was good for 45 min and then I had to go home (the house next door). I was already too much, and need a time to escape the madness.

It wasn’t that great beeing there together, like always I started to get a migraine. Those people don’t understand ‘having autism’ so I haven’t told them I have autism. Will it change their behevior? NOPE, it will be worst I guess.

So next Christmas I’ll be living on my own, and I will be just alone for Christmas without family and without the screaming. Then it will be just me and my cats.

Spending Christmas in a quiet place, YEAH I really can’t wait. Maybe that will make me love the holidays again.

For dinner I had just a sandwich with peanutbutter and jam, and some whipped cream cake.

After dinner I had enough ! I went home, not saying goodbye and locked the door here. I wanted to be alone. Later that evening they were leaving and they were knocking on the door, but I refused to open it and to say goodbye. When I’m hurt I’m hurt. 

The day after Christmas

So what about today ?

Today I woke up at 9am, ate some breakfast and went back to bad. My head was exploding and I had pain just everywhere (now I have horrible pain in my hand writing this blog).

This afternoon I stayed in bed and watched the last episodes of Fuller House. I actually woke up again and came out of bed around 3 pm!

All my muscles hurt so much, can bearly move and have no energy doing stuff.

Seeing a doctor?

Yes, I’ve searched for an appointement with a specialist. Everywhere here in my area is having a long waiting time. SO, I can have an appointement at the end of MAY.

Yess you read it good ! An appointement in MAY ! So this will be a long 5 months with pain everywhere. So horrible! (I know this blog had a lot of ‘horrible’ in it, sorry). Feeling like Grumpy cat right now. 

” What I got for Christmas? “

Everybody is showing their ‘what I got for Christmas’ on their Instagram/Twitter/Facebook and their blog.

No I will not show here my list of things “what I got for Christmas”? Euhm why not? Well simple ! I didn’t got a present for Christmas.

WHAT? You might be shocked ! But is another reason why I don’t feel all the Christmas spirit like anyone else. For me not a surprise, I’m used to it. Maybe I will get some presents at New Year.

But I’m not expecting some big presents !

So I’m a bit sorry that I can’t watch all your “what I got for Christmas” blogs, it’s making this autistic girl feel sad 😥 

Love Lucy xx

 

Blogmas 24 … Merry Christmas !

” It’s the most magical time of year “

Like the song goes ” it’s the most wonderfull time of year “, everybody is having some magical days.

Everybody !

Everybody, the whole world BUT

ME

Weeks before Christmas

Weeks before Christmas, everybody is so looking forward to the holiday season. Planning what to eat on Christmas Eve and Christmas day. Planning what to buy for family and friends. Where to spend the holidays, where to go shopping etc.

And than there’s the Christmas tree. Buying a new tree (if it’s a real one), or putting your plastic one again. New decorations or all the decorations you already have collected before?

All those things, give so much stress for me. And really I’m totally not ready to celebrate Christmas or New Year.

Christmas tree

So this year, I was quite early putting my tree up and putting decorations in the tree. I didn’t spend a lot of time, but everybody is loving my tree so I’m happy. I did something good this year !

Here’s a little trowback of when I set my tree up.

Christmas music

I really love Christmas music, like I wrote in my blogmas earlier this week. I can’t stop listening to the Christmas album of Lady Antebellum.

It’s still so great, every time I put it on.

Christmas spirit

I have to admit my Christmas spirit is going off and on, off and on. Some moments I really love all the things about Christmas is coming, other days I can really sit back and wish all those days were over.

Like today … after seeing the lightning parade yesterday I felt some Christmas magic. Today I kind of lost it again. I don’t really have the feeling that it’s Christmas Eve today. Christmas tomorrow, OMGosh !

Christmas Eve

Well, you might guess … I’m sitting here at my table to write my blogmas (blogmas 23 and blogmas 24) insteat of celebrating Christmas with family.

Everyone on my personal Facebook is posting pictures and sending messages of them having a great diner and playing games together. I kind of put away my iPhone for the rest of the evening.

All my friends and family are sitting at a table to have diner and have a great time with each other. Well, I’m here having a ‘great’ time at my computer.

No plans today. I kind of missed not beeing at work. The only thing I did today was thinking, thinking, thinking and sleeping. Really not in the mood and not having the spirit of Christmas.

Most people with autism feel lonely and don’t like the holidays … well I’m one of those pleople.

Grinch

Okay, don’t get me wrong ! I’m not the GRINCH ! I’m not going to steal christmas from everyone. I just having a day and evening like any other sunday.

Maybe next year will be different.

So different this year

Now it’s the first year without my granny to celebrate the holiday, so another reason for me to not like the holidays this year.

I really love things that I know, and things that are familier. Now this year everything changed since my granny passed. A thing this #aspie girl really hates. All those changes, I hate changes in my life.

Christmas Day

Tomorrow some family will come over to eat. They will come around 2 pm in the afternoon. So I have plenthy of time to sleep and take a nap after lunch to clear my head before they come.

They are so loud, and I just don’t like all that hugging and all that kissing. So my plan for tomorrow is to come downstairs later than they arrive so I can skip that part. Hopefully.

The idea that I will not have internet access the afternoon, and I will be stuck at the table, makes my so scared.

Christmas Day outfit

To escape from all the dressing stress tomorrow morning I already put aside my outfit for tomorrow.

I will be wearing my normal black skinny jeans from JDY, black scarf from Zara (if it’s to cold I have something extra).

I will also wear my Christmas jumper by H&M, that I bought a few days ago.

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Meowy Christmas to all of you ! 

For shoes I’m still in doubt. I have 2 options but they are both loafers. I will be chosing between these 2 …

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Golden loafers from ‘Marco Tozzi’, new collection available at Schoenen Torfs (Belgium)

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Gucci look-a-like from Steve Madden, winter collection available at Schoenen Torfs

The party is at my brothers house, so first I have to wear my old Timberland boots to go to all the dirth to get there (new building). So I will wear one of them inside, and maybe I’ll take the other pair with me.

The rest of the day will be hard, sitting there with all the screaming, movie playing, music playing, family talking etc. Maybe I’ll go home between all the food and watch ‘Olaf’s frozen Adventure’ on television.

Or maybe, I’ll come back here to blog, I will see.

But for now …

 

Merry Christmas to all of you !
Have a magical Christmas Eve and enjoy the time with your family and friends!

Love, Lucy xx

Blogmas 21 … Christmas treat

My favorite Christmas treat …

Lychee

Earlier this week I was in the store and I found these really delicious lychees again. For me … there’s no Christmas feeling without eating lychee.

Normally they are quite expensive here in Belgian stores but this year I found that the price per kilo was okay.

So I was glad I could buy these (one time buy only each year) delicious lychee before Christmas. Guess the price will be higher this weekend.

Yummie !

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Grocery shopping during the Holiday season

Going to a supermarket here in my area is pretty hard for me as an autistic girl. Since we have a new Lidl store here, I prefer to go grocery shopping there.

Last week I was in our local ‘Colruyt’ supermarket, which is always full packed with products, people that are just not fighting to get the last products. For this autistic girl shopping at Colruyt (the shop with the lowest prices in Belgium) is a nightmare.

Doing your grocery shopping there the days before Christmas is HELL ! Like people forget to have some respect for others, they seem to think ‘ I need that, go out of my way I was here first ‘. So horrible.

So yesterday I did my shopping before going to work at Lidl. I guess I have everything bought to get me through the Christmas weekend!

Buying Fruits

Buying fruits … well for this autism girl it’s so hard. Because I littery count everything, and I ONLY buy fruits in pieces of 2,4,7 or 11.

When I need like 1 mango (to make some coockies) I always need to buy 2.

For the lychee I had to buy 11 (yes already ate one), because more it’s not right in my head. The were kind of cheap for lychee, so I could bought more but my head said ” STOP, only 11″.

Yesterday I wanted some oranges, 3 would be okay (because I don’t eat that everyday) but NO again I needed to buy 4 pieces.

I even count my bananas when I buy them. I just can’t go home with 5 bananas.

Here in Belgium most apples are packed in a set of 6. So that’s always a huge problem. Buying 6 apples is so wrong to me.

When I need like 1 advocados and there’s only one left in the store ? I just can’t buy that one piece, I need the option to buy 2. Buying that one piece that was left, is not done for me. It gives me so much stress !

Buying other things by number?

Yess, most of my grocery shopping I buy with numbers in my head. I needed a pack of corn pasta (good for a week) but NO again I had to buy 2 packs, same with pasta sauce.

That’s the same when I need some cat food for my sweeties. I have 2 cats so I always have to buy 2 pieces of food or 4 pieces.

So one week I have a long list of items to buy (because I need to buy more than I need), and the other week it’s a short list with mostly fresh things on it like vegetables.

Question for other people on the spectrum?

Do you also have to count things before buying them in a supermarket? Do you have tips to survive this bizzy days at the supermarket to buy fresh vegetables of fruit?

Everytime I see people that are looking strange when I count every piece I buy.  Beeing on the autism spectrum I have so much problems with grocery shopping. When I’m going to a supermarket on my own (like before work) I need my in-ear headphones to me calm and not freak out about everything around me.

This blogmas is coming to an end, and I still like the idea of daily  blogging 🙂

Love Lucy xx

 

 

Blogmas 17 … lazy (painfull) Sunday

December 17 … week week till the Holidays

So today I had a day off. Yesterday was a bizzy workday but a great one. Like every story I have to post, I have some terrible pains everywhere.

If I work a day, I need a day to be at home and do nothing. Just laying in bed, and sleep.

But today my family had some more plans for today, so it was a very hard day.

Now it’s 8pm and the pain is just killing me, even while I’m writing this blog. My hands are thick and I have a terrible headache.

My plan for this evening was to write a blogmas about my favorite songs, but that I just can’t do at the moment. This autism girl wanted to write a blog tonight so that’s what I’m doing right now.

Tomorrow I have a day full of plans so I hope it will be okay and feeling better tomorrow.

So pain, what kind of pain do I have?

  • A lot of pain everywhere in my body and some tender points
  • Spots where I have more pain and more pressure
  • Fatigue (all day long)
  • problems with sleeping
  • a lot of concentration problems (not knowing what day it is, what I have to do or what people told me like 5 minutes ago in the store)
  • anxiety and feeling a bit of my “old” depression symptoms feeling coming back
  • every moring I have stiffness
  • numbless and tingling everywhere like my hands, knees, legs, arms
  • migraines, headache one is just over and I have another one
  • problems with my stomach
  • painfull eyes
  • and bigger neck lymph

Dr. Google?

Like many others, there’s always dr. Google. Not a good idea, because I’m freaking out when I’m searching on those symptoms.

I went to my doctor for a test to see if I had rheumatism or not. The results were negative. So he gave me some more vitamins, magnesium and iron tablets. I had to take them for a month or 2 months.

But now after a month I don’t feel any differents. It’s so sad that I have to say that the problems are getting worse.

Fibromyalgia

After searching on those symtoms I get so many results from the internet that are saying ‘fibromyalgia’.

As I’m a girl with autism I have like always tensions of all the stress I have all day in like every situation (working, going grocery shopping, taking a buss, going to the city). All that tension could make things worse.

The last thing I want is a long time spending in the hospital for doing some more test or spending days there to found out what’s wrong. Not knowing what will happen with me that day, always freaks me out.

So now I don’t know what to do. I really love my job and I just don’t want to give it up or stay at home because of all the pain. I only have 3 months left there at my work place and I want to spend those months at work and not in a hospital.

Christmas and Holidays?

This year I don’t have plans for Christmas eve, or the year ending. Besides that I have to work December 30 and 31. Guess I will be in bed on December 31 at 9pm like always 😦
While all my facebook is having a party I’ll be at home, in bed watching a movie or just sleeping.

On Christmas day I a family diner in the afternoon. But if I have so much pain and if I’m so fatigue like today. I guess I’ll be just in my room and watching a movie on Netflix. I don’t have the best family for parties. The make always so much noise and they always give me so much headache.

For you?

So I hope you all have amizing holidays this year and great parties !

One day …

One day, I hope that I can life a happy life without this much pain. That I found a really good doctor that give me some advice on how to life with this pain.

Love, Lucy xx

Blogmas 15 … Ugly Christmas Sweater day

Ugly Christmas Sweater day

 

# 1 … Divided by H&M

So today was THE ‘ugly Christmas Sweater day’ ! From this day, for me it’s okay to wear a Christmas jumper outside the house.

Over the past years I have bought a few Christmas jumpers, but never really liked them to be comfy wearing them outside.

This year was so different ! I bought 2 Christmas jumpers I just really like. Yesterday I bought the one I really love (or just adore).

Since a few weeks I love this jumper, from the day it came online. It’s from Divided by H&M.

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After buying this yesterday I even more in love with it.

It’s a black jumper (not a sweatshirt), it has a cat on it, has the christmas lights (which look like the Osborn lights from Hollywood Studios in Walt Disney World).

So today I wore this beauty to work, and I really felt amazing ! I was so cute, and it has the Christmas vibe all over it.

Now it’s in the wash, but can’t wait to wear this again next week to work !

It’s going to be sad when Christmas is over and I can’t wear it for the rest of the 350 days to come 😥

# 2 … Only by Bestseller Group

Earlier I bought an other Christmas sweater. I bought this the day the sales assistant were putting it in the Store ‘ Modemakers’.

It’s from the Bestseller Group brand ONLY, one of my favorite brands! Actually I love every brand from the Bestseller Group, like Vero Moda, Jacqueline De Yong, Vila Clothes and Pieces.

This knitted jumper is from Only

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This one is on my list to wear tomorrow with a black skinny jeans or maybe my black leather skirt of shorts.

Hohoho Merry Christmas !

Rudolf the BLACK nose reindeer ! 

And YOU?

How many Christmas sweaters do you have? Did you wear one today on ‘ugly Christmas sweater day’?

Oh, what did you think of my 2 choices for jumpers this year (the cat from H&M and the reindeer from Only)?

 

Thanks for reading another #blogmas tonight!

Love Lucy xx

Blogmas 13 … What I’ll be watching on Netflix

Sorry, so sorry that I couldn’t write my yesterday’s blog ! It was a long workday (sold a lot of shoes) and I had (still have) a very terrible toothache. 

What will I watch the upcoming week?

Most of you bloggers are having a top 10 with favorite things to watch this christmas season.  I also have a top list of things I have to watch this Holiday season.

I’m not that girl that goes to a theater to watch the big movies that are coming out ! So here no Star Wars movie on my list, or others. I really like movies I can watch at home, in a quiet place where I don’t have to be stress with all the sounds of drinks and popcorn of others.

Ready? Let’s found out which one.

# 1 A Wish for Christmas

This movie I really want to see again, really loved it last year. I’m a big fan of Lacey Chabert.

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# 2 A Christmas Prince

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For this one, I’m not that enthousiast. I just want to see it because everybody is talking about it. I’ll let you know how it was.

# 3 Every Christmas has a story

I started watching this movie a few weeks ago, but I fell asleep. So this is one thing on my list to see, and see the whole movie in one time.

In Full House and now Fuller House I always liked Lori, since I was a kid and I saw here the first time. So this movie I can’t miss this season.

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# 4 Olaf’s Frozen Adventure … oh and Frozen

Now with all the commotion about the part of Frozen before the movie Coco, I really want to see this Frozen Adventure. Sorry, but I just can’t spend 9 EUR for a movie where I get nuts of all the noices and I only want to see the Frozen part. Coco is something I want to watch for the first time at home.

Next Saturday the 23th, a television station here in Belgium will show Olaf’s Frozen Adventure on TV. So I can record this and watch it when I’m alone or just maybe watch it when it’s showing that evening.

After the Olaf’s Frozen Adventure, this tv station will also show the original Frozen movie. I also recorded this one, for when I’m alone here, my other family will not be happy when Frozen will play.

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And the ONE thing I REALLY REALLY want to see the upcoming week is

Fuller House

The last thing I want to watch the upcoming week, well Friday the 22 December!  I have a day off, so I hope it’s on Netflix in the morning here so I can watch this all day long in PJ’s. Would be nice to relax, drink hot cocoa and eat some waffles and watch Fuller House.

I watch every episode when I was a kid, was a hugh fan of Lori (Becky). Even when I couldn’t speak English, I could say some quotes from the episode by heart. Very strange, but that’s maybe my autistic part.

Unfortually I lost that. When I see a movie or follow a show on Netflix I always forget it, or I forget the important stuff so I have to re-watch a half episode before playing the next one.

But for now … I can’t wait to watch FULLER HOUSE !!!!

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Love Lucy xx

Blogmas 8 … Heidi Klum collection & grocery shopping at Lidl

Wow, it’s already December 8th 😮 I just can’t believe that tomorrow is our party at work!

Grocery shopping

Today I had another day of, so the time to do some grocery shopping at Lidl. Since we have a brand new store here in Boortmeerbeek, I really love to go there for grocery shopping. For me it’s now the perfect ‘auti-friendly’ store !

There was nothing special on my grocery list, besides some bread with nuts, spinach, bananas, peanutbutter. Most of the other things I normally eat for lunch and diner I already had bought earlier this week. I just needed some more fresh things for the weekend.

Heidi Klum collection @Lidl

Since this week you can shop the new collection of Heidi Klum at Lidl, in store and online. I saw some nice things online but I wanted to see what there was in store.

As I new there was another party collection coming, I saved some money to buy me something of this collection.

Online I saw I very nice mini skirt and a nice blue dress. Both were for sale in the store, and some of the clothes were out of their packaging. So good to check for the sizes.

Wel I was in shock how small the sizes were! I’ve took a mini skirt in the color pink I wanted and it looked great. Till the moment I saw the size, I had a size 42 in my hands and I looked like the normal size I would take in my normal shop in a size S.

So I didn’t take that skirt because the sizes didn’t felt good.

In the box next to the skirt I found the blue dress. But it was another no. The color was perfect but agian it looked so small. There was a size 44 (L) open and it looked again like my normal size 36-38 😮

I couldn’t take those clothes realizing I had to take them back to the store when they are not good from size.

Other things I liked from this collection but weren’t in my budget (I made the choice to buy the skirt and dress at home) were the scarf and a black sweater.

There was only one scarf left, and just the one with the dots I liked so I bought that one.

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This one I can wear with my uniform I have to wear on Saturdays at work. This one was 9,99 EUR.

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In the same box as the scarf I found the black sweatshirt with the zippers. This I bought in my normal size 36-38 and it look good from sizing, not toooo smal as the party collection.

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This sweater/hoodie was only 14,99 EUR and I’m going to wear this a lot. You never can do a thing wrong with a good black hoodie ❤

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My afternoon

As I had a day of today, and it was cold and snowy outside, I spent the afternoon just at home watching others vlogmas on Youtube.

Together with a hot chocolate milk (powder from Lidl, Blogmas 1) and a cookie

 

Evening

This evening I took the time to DIY color my hair again. As always I used the color from the brand Syoss. My hair stays healthier and looks so much better than when I go to a hairdresser.

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My hair is ready for the party tomorrow!

Tomorrow

Later this evening I’m going to bed early. Idd, early to bed on a Friday evening while everybody is going out. I’m going out tomorrow evening after a long day at work.

Tomorrow I have to work from 9.15 am till 18.30 pm and after that we leave for our party with all the colleagues from Flanders. My first party with all the people I love.
I hope I will be awake till 3am on Sunday. It’s going to be hard because as an autistic girl I never go out at night.

Tomorrow Tomorrow Tomorrow I love you Tomorrow ! Yess, tomorrow  I can wear my pink tutu with my new dr. Martens and I can share you all the style for this party.
I will be changing clothes at work, but hey in a shoe store you have enough mirrors !

After work untill we leave for the party I will drink a loooooot of coffee !

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So tomorrow I will not have the time to post another blogmas as I will be not at home in the evening. I will put some updates on my outfit on Twitter or Instagram in the evening so you can see something before I go to the party.

See you later ! Love Lucy xx