How is life rightnow ? Therapy, therapy, therapy

Well yeah, the never ending story of my life I guess. 

THERAPY

 The whole thing with having autism, having psoriasis, having fibromyalgia, having meltdowns, … got it’s breakpunt reached.

I never stopped therapy sessions with my psychologist, or psychiatrist, but now I’m going a few times more again.

Everybody is saying you have a great job, a great new house, great family … ‘ you can’t have a mental problem’. Well I’m sure have !

For me everything has to be perfect, so it’s so damn hard if you can’t create, can’t drawn, can’t shop like you always have in a perfect way. I can’t color my hair anymore, getting new pills who are making me fat (okay I don’t eat healthy all day but that’s never get’s me as FAT as since I started to take those new pills).

So yesterday, I had an appointement with my therapist and we had a great talk. So she gave me some homework to deal with the next few weeks. One of them is starting to eat healthy the whole day long.

Eating healthy and planning what I’m going to eat the next days is so hard. Because I don’t know what I want to eat tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.

Doing some groceries every day, is a total NOOOOOO … so now I have a huge struggle in front of me about food, about making better choises.

I took my favorite cook book by the hand and this evening I started to bake the Bananabread, like NIOMI SMART. She posted a video ‘what I eat in a day’ a few days ago on her YouTube channel, so I was inspired to make that to.

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So here it is! I never get this golden brown look like she has but it’s sooo delicious. 

I now have breakfast for tomorrow. Okay I took  slices as a snack already. I just couldn’t resist. I hope I can eat this tomorrow morning without my chocopaste (I’m still in my eating chocopaste period). So hope I will be okay eating this tomorrow and not having toast with chocopaste.

Tomorrow is a workday, so it’s going to be a salad for me insteat of a sandwich with some good old Dutch cheese.

I have to do this, I have to eat healthy to stay like this and not getting fatter because of the pills. If I don’t do this, and nothing will fit me, than I’ll be back on track with feeling despressed (story of my life, nothing new).

Please be kind and love your support, here on my blog, on my Instragram (@autisticcountrygirl) or Twitter (@autisticcountry).

**** Stay Smiling ****

Love lucy xx
(maybe it’s that time to start blogging under me real firstname soon)

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What I eat in a day … when I have a bad day ?

A few months ago I posted my first ‘what I eat in a day’. I love routine when it comes to eating and when it comes to making food choices.

A few weeks ago I started to eat more healthier again, to have some more energy during the day. Loosing weight again will be so good, but that will be impossible while I take this much medication every day.

Last monday I had a very bad day, a lot of headache, I had an appointment with my psychologist in the morning, and was so tired.

So here’s what I ate during that day. It’s just to show you what I ate, and it’s not healthy that day, what I know but I want to show you that’s it’s not easy to eat healthy and stay focussed on healthy eating when feeling down and having some issues about my autism. So please be kind, and please to not follow this menu (it’s not something I eat everyday). 

Breakfast

I have some periodes in my life where I eat stuff for a few weeks and then I can eat that anymore. So now I’m in my ‘chocopaste’ periode, and everyday I eat some toast with chocopaste. The one form Lidl, as spending around 5 EUR for the same from Nutella is a no!

So that monday I eat 2 slices of toast, made from white bread as I’m getting sick at the moment eating whole wheat products.

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This pot of 750 grams was only 1,99 EURO in Lidl Belgium, so a better deal than buying Nutella and paying around 5 EURO for the same amount.

Lunch

I had an appointment with the psychologist and when I came home I needed some comfyfood. Some quick lunch meal. Like the quote … when you feel like crap, you eat like crap.

So I made my some mac’n cheese, the Belgium way. It’s without cheddar, and with some ham.

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After this I drunk a cup of coffee with some skimmed milk. I’m just a coffee person, and always need coffee after a warm meal.

Diner

So the first 2 meals of the day where horrible and not healthy (but yummy), I went for a salad for diner. Now we have a special USA Ranch sauce in our store. It just taste like the ones in the USA. I was so happy when I found it in Colruyt, and since then I’m eating a lot of salads. Maybe not that healthy in combination with the ranch sauce all the time, but at least I’m eating my veggies every day !

 

It’s a salad with advocado, mango, egg, cucumber and salad.

Snacks

For snack I had some strawberries, which are in season right now, so a reason to eat more of them. During the day I had some strawberries, and around 8PM I also had some but than with some icing sugar.

 

Drinks

During that day I have to admit to drink a lot of Coke Zero, but also a liter water a day. Besides that I have my daily Ginger Ale, and my daily cup of coffee.

Yess, I might drink a lot, but that’s just me. I drink around 3 liters a day in total, and in summer even more. Even on work days, it’s way more than those 3 liters.

 

So this was my ‘what I eat in a day, when I’m not feeling well physically. So please no judging me for eating this during those days. I know I can eat better, but my ‘autistic mind’ won’t always let me eat better and healthier.  I like some routines, and I eat stuff in periodes like the chocopaste.

It’s possible that I start a ‘jam’ periode or cheese periode next week and than I’m stuck with my stash of chocopaste 😉

But you will always find out here or on my Instagram 😉

Thanks for reading !

Love Lucy xx