Just an update on my life

So my last blogpost I wrote at the end of March. So scary to find out that it was that long ago.

Well, I also have to admit that there was some few things not going well the past weeks. I thought to give you all an update, and tell out about the next coming months.

Autism, my side effects on life

Being on the autistic spectrum disorder, is (for me) having some issues on just dealing with daily life. It’s kind of hard to find a good balance between worklife, personal life, and social life.

I work a parttime job, most weeks around 20 hours a week, to find some rest in my head. But I really can’t find that rest and peace in my head as I was expecting it would be.

Now I’m kind at the hedge of having a depression again, but now I have some great help from the start to deal with it.

All the stress of daily life, going to work, work with a lot of people, building a house, going to the city (to see the psychologist) and not allowed to go to the shops, having a lot of musscle pain, having psoriasis on my head (and eyebrows) … like how much can one person handle?

For me it’s just so hard to find a right middle on all those things that makes me happy.

Psoriasis

So since September I’ve been diagnosed with psoriasis, and it’s based on my head and now also on my eyebrows. It’s so horrible.

Like it’s so painfull to dye my hair, and it’s even forbidden. NO DYE my hair, so all the grey hairs will be everywhere 😮
Yess, that’s reality when you are over 30 years, so sad.

All those emotions on the treatment, the special products I have to uses daily, the stress of making time for it everyday. And for what ? I will always be under a lot of stress because of my autism, and stress is the main factor on making psoriasis worse.

Like it’s an endless circle.

Muscle pain

Since a few months/years (I’m bad with times) I have some serious pains everywhere in my body.

In the hospital (where I had an appointment for my psoriasis) they told me to go to another doctor who’s specialised in reumathism, and artritis.

With that doctor I had an appointement in march, just a 10 minutes talk. I had to go back to the hospital to do some tests which I did on the 20th.

A few days later I got the results and she told me nothing was wrong and that was it. No further tests, no appointment to talk about the results … just nothing. I was so angry, and had so many emotions going on I couldn’t place.

My normal doctor, psychiatrist, psychologist, all think I have fibromyalgia but in the hospital they would do further tests … I really hate it when thinking about it.

So now I got some telephone numbers of other reumatologists in my area to go for a second opinion and some more tests.

AND HERE’S THE PROBLEM NOW

I got some telephone numbers, I mean telephone numbers ??? Like I hate to call people, I hate to call doctors and tell everything over the phone. Searched all the internet for some more details, but it looks like that doctor only have a phone to contact her. So now I’m under some more stress to call them next Tuesday. Today is impossible, because I’m just not ready.

How I see the future?

These days I’m having high stresslevels because soon I’ll be moving out, and will be living on my own. A whole house just for me, a new neighbourghood, new people, new way to go to work, new busses, new sounds, … Everything will be NEW !!

I really hate changes, I really hate the word NEW (not when it come’s to new shoes, but that’s something different, right). Shoes are my thing, the thing I like, the thing I can talk about for hours, or just look for new styles for hours. Oh boy, here I go again talking about shoes, so sorry! 

So the next few weeks will be filled with all new things, a lot of stress, a lot of pain (headaches, muscles pains), a lot of work in the shoe store, moving my things, figuring out what it will be living on my own and with a budget.

That last part will be such a hard thing to deal with, paying for everything while I work parttime and have to pay my house, and all the monthy costs with only one small paycheck.

Most of the days I think I can beat my emotions and think the future will be so good, but other days I’m getting such depressed feelings about it and feelings of giving up. I’m getting back to the ‘one moment I feeling happy and one moment I feel down’ period.

BUT like I said now I have a whole team who’s there for me, and hope you will be here to reading my story and helping me out.

Thanks for reading !

Greets Lucy xx

 

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So this was my year … 2017

I just can’t believe this … it’s already January 4th. Where did the last 4 days go? It’s going so fast again. *so shocking*

A year full of changes

If I have to discripe my year 2017 with ONLY one word, it will be … CHANGES !

As a girl on the autistic spectrum, I have to say : “I HATE CHANGES”. It’s so hard for me to deal with new things that are coming to me without I asked for it.

So last year was very hard for me. A lot of changes in every part of my life. Here’s some more about everything …

1. Work

At the end of 2016, I got more and more tasks to do at my old office. My work hours and workdays to do all the things didn’t changed. So more work, and more stress.

All that work ended up with longer workdays. I started at my office at 7.30 am and most of the days I left at 5.15 pm. More than I should be there, but there was no alternative.

My old workplace was not in my area, but near Brussels. So in the mornings I had to leave home and take the train at 6.15 am (every single workday). Most of the days I came home at 7 pm.

As I don’t have a drivers licence, I had to take public transportation like the train and the bus. That combination of trains and busses was horrible.

A lot of stress before work of all the people in the train/bus, than a stressy day at work, and going back with more stress because I was always late at home.

In November 2016 most problems started again like the symptons of an autistic burn-out. But in January 2017 I was ready to get some more help, and I was able to have a positive feeling about the new year. I was planning of searching a new job, closer to home.

Than February 2017 came … The announcement of around 70 people will lose their job in March. So horrible. Together with my depression feelings and that new I got very ill (mentally).

In March I knew I was one of the ‘lucky’ people who was going to lose their job in June. When I got the news I was okay with it. About 15 minutes later, when I saw my colleagues I crashed. Than I realized I had to leave all of them behind and leave the work I loved to do.  change # 1

After taking a long break I didn’t had to go back to work, so May 18 was my last day. A month earlier.

During 3 months I got some amazing support from a extern company here in Belgium to find a new job. As an accountant there are still plenthy of jobs in my area, and still receiving invitations for jobs.

I decided that with my autism (together with my psychiatrist and psychologist) I could work a fulltime job in an office the following months. So time for a new plan. I really love fashion and more I really like shoes.

If I had to search for a new job, I wanted to do something where I can share my passion for shoes and fashion with others.  So I went searching for a job as a shoeseller or fashion advisor (I have a diploma ‘fashion advisor’).

After some tests and interviews I found THE MOST AMAZING job in the world. I started to work in my favorite shoestore. I can talk about shoes all day long. I’m now so happy when I can go to work.

This new job (a new big change) change # 2 changed my life in a positive way. I’m so GRATEFUL for the change I got to work for this amazing team of colleagues ! It’s just like working in a store full of family or friends.

Okay … working in a shoestore is so hard when you have less money because you work parttime. You know what I mean … putting a shoelover in a shoestore is like a kid in a candy store ! It’s so hard!

2. Family

Another change in my life last year. In May I had to say goodbye to my grandma. It was so hard, after knowing here my whole life. As a farmers daughter we always were together here.  change # 3

That with losing my job in March was so hard that I crashed at work when I got the message she past away.  But with some great mental help, I had giving it a place. Not having to go back to work was also a great thing.

Now in January I still have some difficult moments, but that’s everything here reminds me of her (she lived her too).

3. Building a house

Can you guess it? Oh yes another big change. After hunting for the perfect house for years, I started to build (let it build by great people) my own house. Just a little house, but it’s all new, and all the things I like are there.

I had to change to create it the way that I wanted it to be. So now I have the outside looking like the grey bricks of the Cinderella castle at Magic Kingdom in Walt Disney World.  (will post some pictures later, as it’s not whole finished at this day).

This is change # 4 , and it’s going to be a big CHANGE in this year. Hoping to move out after living here at home for 33 years! I’m now going to move to my own place with my 2 beloved cats.

I hope we can be happy there all on ourselfs (me and the cats).

4. Starting a blog

In January 2017 I started a blog here on WordPress (called AutiLucy) about my life at that moment and all the problems I had living my autistic life.

During all those months I was not that ‘happy’ blog.

I took me till June to feel better and better and started to live a happier life again. Left all my previous problems behind.

So my life changed, got my happy life back. I never felt that happy in years ! I was so done with posting on my old blog, because it was a daily remember of all the bad things that happend the past months.

A fresh start in my life, so a fresh start in blogging ! change # 5

In october I started to use Twitter again to share my daily story with people who were kind to me and were interested in my store. So also a THANK YOU to you reading my blog at the moment. I means so much to me.

Day after day I feel so much better when I can blog. It’s like I found of way to talk to people, to share my story, found somebody to listen to me.

5. Losing colleagues, friends

In 2017 I lost the colleagues I loved to work with. But when going to a weekly appointement of ‘outplacement’ I felt better. Now that all of that is over, I kind of miss them. change # 6

During the months of 2017 I also lost some friends. First they stopped talking to me, but hey I’m over that now.

I have a few friends and now I have the amazing colleagues where I can talk to. Oh now I’m putting ‘have’, hope that in don’t have to put ‘had’ in a few weeks as my contract is almost finished. But I will still go shop there, so will see them for sure.

6. Losing weight

At the end of all the changes 2017 gave me. It also gave me the change of losing weight again. I lost 17 kg from January till August. Just eating healthier, making healthier choices. change # 7

The weight came on because of all the medication I had to take for my depression / autistic burn-out. I still take some of that medication but I eat less and drink more water.

I’m also became a big fan of Noimi Smart and since I have here first cookbook I’m all into eating better.

I stopped eating meat, and trying to eat more veggies.

As part of my autism, I have some problems with eating. I eat things in an order, start my day with the same breakfast every single day. If I liked something to eat, I can eat that for days, till the moment I had enough.

On days I work till 7 pm I don’t eat a warm (good) meal, but now I trying to eat a healthy wrap with spinach.

7. Parttime job, parttime money

After working a fulltime job for more than 10 years, I started to work a parttime job. I was used to buy the things I like. To buy the parfum and make-up I wanted and that was so good, but so expensive (looking at it now).  change # 8

Now I have half the budget, but not half the costs in my life. Guess that part of bills will never change. You always have to pay the bills and bills are still coming. So shocking. But the truth.

Now I have to look at things I want for weeks, plan it, make a budget and safe a lot of money (a lot of money).

Not buying the shoes you like, when you’re working in a shoestore. SO yeah it’s a hard life having a budget. Plan for 2018 is to find a way to get more money but not having to work outside the house for a fulltime job. Doing a parttime job as extra from here at home, that will work for me. No stress of public transportation which made my days so bad.

8. What about 2018?

Well, 2018 will be another year with big changes. But now I feel happy and for the first time I’m okay with all the new things coming my way. Kind of strange to say that I’m feeling okay with changes in my life.

Here are some changes that are coming to me in the next months:

  • some hospital appointements coming soon, and it’s pretty scary for me.
  • can I stay at my job or not? searching a new job or not?
  • decorating my new home
  • preparing my cats to move
  • moving out
  • hospital for some test for fibromyalgia or ???
  • finding an extra job or find a way to become a freelance blogger or writer, or trying to life from my blog. Can’t live my life with less money because of my fulltime job.
  • starting a budget planner to start safe money

Probably more changes coming, but you’ll be the first to know it.

 

I’m ending my blog here. Enough changes to talk about. In every single part of my life I had to make changes.

Love Lucy xx

If you have some tips on how to get more money as a blogger, freelancer, etc from home, please let me know.

New Year Resolutions … To do in 2018

Well, new year … new resolutions to make for the upcoming months.

Most of the years I don’t make a New Years Resolutions list, because I know that I will not follow it.

Last year my life changed so hard, that I wanted  such a list for 2018 !

A thing that’s not on my list is being & staying healthy. WHY? The past months I have so much pain and it’s getting worst every day. So finding help for my pain is on my list. I’m not feeling healthy at the moment, so putting ‘a healthy year’ on my list would not be correct.

What’s on my list? Curious? 

2018 New Year Resolutions

  • Finding a doctor/hospital for all my chronic pains (headache, muscles pains, etc) I really want to know why I can’t do the things I love to do because of all the pain
  • save more money
  • move to my new house with my cats ! Really hope my outdoor cats will be happy with a life as an indoor cat
  • get a second job as a blogger or make my blog better to get some more money. I’m not allowed to work a fulltime job, so want something extra that I can do at home for some extra money
  • NEVER give up hope for a better future, always stay strong and stay positive !

 

So these were my things I want to do in the next 12 months.

Yours?

What are your resolutions for this year? Do you make them or not?

Well, I’m now at home. Normally I had a family party but I was having to much pain to stay, so my parrents dropped me home.
Beeing at home I’m feeling better already ! The atmosphere there was just horrible for this autistic girl on the first day of the year.

Tomorrow, the sales are starting in Belgium so this girl has to work a full day and is not allowed to be sick on the buzziest day of the year.

Love Lucy xx Have a nice FIRST day of January !

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Blogmas 19 … Spending Christmas in bed?

Skipping Christmas this year?

The closer Christmas is coming, the worst my pain is getting.

Yesterday I had a day off but it was a day full of appointements with psychiatrist and psychologist and a stop at my workplace. A day where I took one bus after the other, and was so tired at night.

Today I also had a day off, and most of my day I spend in bed. I had so much pain again, after a bizzy day.

Now I just finished writing 16 christmas cards (see blogmas 18) and now I have to write this blog with one hand. I can’t use my right hand at the moment 😮 So shocking, another stadium in my pain ???

This blogmas will be a short one, because I’m going to bed after taking some more pain killing pills. (hope they work !)

Tomorrow I’ll make an appointement to see some doctor specilalized in rheumatism or fibromyalgia. This is not normal for a 32 year to be in bed all day. Okay, my autism could make me tired, but this pain is so intense and so worse.

But first … tomorrow is a bizzy day. In the morning I have to take a bus to Mechelen for an appointement, after that I have to be at work at 11.30am to start a (I GUESS) a very bizzy day at work. Guess most people will be hunting for Christmas presents, when the kids are out of school.

In the evening I have to go to my dentist again. Glad that toothache is better and my tooth can be filled again !

So I’m sorry if I’m not able to write a blogmas tomorrow 😦 

On Thursday I have another workday, a full one. On Friday I have a day off, but I guess I’m going to spend it in bed watching ‘Fuller House’.

See you all later, hope with less pain !

Love Lucy xx

Blogmas 17 … lazy (painfull) Sunday

December 17 … week week till the Holidays

So today I had a day off. Yesterday was a bizzy workday but a great one. Like every story I have to post, I have some terrible pains everywhere.

If I work a day, I need a day to be at home and do nothing. Just laying in bed, and sleep.

But today my family had some more plans for today, so it was a very hard day.

Now it’s 8pm and the pain is just killing me, even while I’m writing this blog. My hands are thick and I have a terrible headache.

My plan for this evening was to write a blogmas about my favorite songs, but that I just can’t do at the moment. This autism girl wanted to write a blog tonight so that’s what I’m doing right now.

Tomorrow I have a day full of plans so I hope it will be okay and feeling better tomorrow.

So pain, what kind of pain do I have?

  • A lot of pain everywhere in my body and some tender points
  • Spots where I have more pain and more pressure
  • Fatigue (all day long)
  • problems with sleeping
  • a lot of concentration problems (not knowing what day it is, what I have to do or what people told me like 5 minutes ago in the store)
  • anxiety and feeling a bit of my “old” depression symptoms feeling coming back
  • every moring I have stiffness
  • numbless and tingling everywhere like my hands, knees, legs, arms
  • migraines, headache one is just over and I have another one
  • problems with my stomach
  • painfull eyes
  • and bigger neck lymph

Dr. Google?

Like many others, there’s always dr. Google. Not a good idea, because I’m freaking out when I’m searching on those symptoms.

I went to my doctor for a test to see if I had rheumatism or not. The results were negative. So he gave me some more vitamins, magnesium and iron tablets. I had to take them for a month or 2 months.

But now after a month I don’t feel any differents. It’s so sad that I have to say that the problems are getting worse.

Fibromyalgia

After searching on those symtoms I get so many results from the internet that are saying ‘fibromyalgia’.

As I’m a girl with autism I have like always tensions of all the stress I have all day in like every situation (working, going grocery shopping, taking a buss, going to the city). All that tension could make things worse.

The last thing I want is a long time spending in the hospital for doing some more test or spending days there to found out what’s wrong. Not knowing what will happen with me that day, always freaks me out.

So now I don’t know what to do. I really love my job and I just don’t want to give it up or stay at home because of all the pain. I only have 3 months left there at my work place and I want to spend those months at work and not in a hospital.

Christmas and Holidays?

This year I don’t have plans for Christmas eve, or the year ending. Besides that I have to work December 30 and 31. Guess I will be in bed on December 31 at 9pm like always 😦
While all my facebook is having a party I’ll be at home, in bed watching a movie or just sleeping.

On Christmas day I a family diner in the afternoon. But if I have so much pain and if I’m so fatigue like today. I guess I’ll be just in my room and watching a movie on Netflix. I don’t have the best family for parties. The make always so much noise and they always give me so much headache.

For you?

So I hope you all have amizing holidays this year and great parties !

One day …

One day, I hope that I can life a happy life without this much pain. That I found a really good doctor that give me some advice on how to life with this pain.

Love, Lucy xx

Blogmas 11 … pain pain pain & more pain | Oh and a healthy recipe for oatmeal waffles

” I’m 32 years old but most of the time I feel like 82! “

Okay, this was the quote for today ! Such a painfull day, so much pain again!

Goodmorning!

I woke up this morning at 8am, but I couldn’t get out of my bed. It needed more time, like always, but today I needed 1h15 to get out of bed. It was 9.15am, till I got up and was able to get some breakfast.

All day I can eat this healthy food I want, but for breakfast I always need sugary things.

My plan after breakfast … I went back to bed for another hour. I had no idea that I could do stuff today.

Snow, snow and more snow

Yesterday the snow melted all, and this morning it was snowing hard again. In just a few hours it was all white and dangerous outside.

Around 13pm I went outside to take a walk in the snow and take some pictures of the snow around us. It’s so magic all the snow outside on the trees.

Once outside it was like the cold wind has frozen my muscle pains. Once inside again I needed to go to bed.

Here are some pictures of the magical snow…

Sorry … it was a NO make-up monday today (and I had so much pain I could not hold my brushes this morning 😥 ) 

Cat paws in the snow

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Some paws I’ve seen today are so strange, like always cat’s don’t have a good direction to follow. Left, right, oh no left again.
I wish I had pictures of my cats in the first snow but they don’t like snow ! 

Old Timberland boots are the best EVER !

Time to bake some … waffles

Oh yess, I’m belgian so waffles are the best here! I really like to bake healthy waffles I can eat for lunch or breakfast. Today I ate some for diner with fresh fruit, peanutbutter and maple sirup.

A few days ago I promised a friend of mine I would sell here my Mickey waffles machine, which was laying here unused for more than 4 years now. And I had to try it to make sure it still works after that long time doing nothing! It still worked !

So time for some oatmeal waffles, the best ever ! Off course I also made some heart shape waffles beside the Mickey ones.

Here are the ingredients I used

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And yess, that’s all you need for a great recipe for healthy waffles. Okay not vegan because of the eggs, but you can replace them.

You need :

  • 200 grams of oatmeal
  • 300 ml of rice milk
  • 2 eggs (not the biggest ones)
  • 1 tbsp of backing powder
  • 2 tbsp of honey
  • 1 theespoon of vanille extract
  • coconut oil for the waffles machine

How to make them ?

  • blend the oatmeal very fine like flour
  • put the egg white in a separate bowl and mix it
  • take another bowl to put all the ingredients in (oatmeal flour, rice milk, honey, vanilla, egg yellow and baking powder)
  • Mix all those ingredients together
  • Add the egg white with a spoon
  • put on the waffle machine while the dough is resting a few minutes
  • put on the coconut oil on the machine and than the dough
  • bake the waffles till golden brown and ready

Enjoy !

Moment after the baking … PAIN

Oh yess, after I baked the waffles, all of them, it was over and out for today. I couldn’t move my arm after eating some waffles.

So here I am now, in bed trying to make todays blogpost and finish it.

It’s so unfair that I’m having all that pain and my doctor is just saying ” it’s not that bad, get over it, and wait another month”.

Last month I had to take medication for 2 months, but after taking them a month it all is getting so much worst 😥

I really feel like an 82 year old women, and not the 32 year old that should have energy to rase kids, have a fulltime job and still is going out !

I have a beautiful life now and feeling so happy (after some really bad years) but all that pain is so hard to deal with rightnow. I want to do stuff, I want to go to the Christmas marktet or just prepare a meal after a workday. But NO, after a workday I’m just dead, so dead !

Tomorrow I have to work a full day, preparing the store for the Christmas and year end sales that are coming end of this week. So tomorrow night, I will have so much pain again. Not normal, but my doctor says it’s not that bad enough grrr.

I’m ending my blog here, going to see if there’s a Chrismas movie on Netflix that I haven’t seen before.

Till tomorrow !

Love Lucy xx

Blogmas 10 … the day after

Indeed the day after the big pary ! I wished I could spend it at my job, but I had a day off. So what have I been up to, the day after a long day for an autism girl???

I had sooooo much pain and had no energy

Morning

Arriving around 1.30 am this morning, oh yess it was morning again. So already here I am with blogmas part 10.

I woke up around 8.30am after beeing awake for more than 30 min. I couldn’t stand on my feet, I had to much pain on my muscles to move. So I had to stay in bed for a long time and reading all the new about the new that was coming.

After my pain was getting less I woke up and got some breakfast. Just an oatmeal chocolate milk and bread with chocolate. I was in the moode for chocolate this morning, I needed some sugar !

Plans after breakfast? Well, I went back to bed. I was feeling horrible, had a lot of pain so best plan was to get back to bed for the rest of the morning.

Afternoon

Around noon I had some time to spend with my 2 beloved cats #teddy and #blacky (blacky is the one with all the colors).

I’ve safed them from the snow outside !

When I first let them in, I guess there were singing …

Baby it’s cold outside

Oh I just love my 2 cats, can’t live without them !

OH RIGHT … THERE WAS SNOW ! THE FIRST REAL SNOW IN BELGIUM

Before noon it was snowing so much here in Belgium. It was so beautiful. Why ‘was’? Because it’s all gone sinds 2 pm this afternoon, when it started to rain 😥 So sad, I really like the snow and the cold.

Here are some pictures of our first snow

Looking at my Chirstmas tree and than seeing all the snow outsite was also so pretty. Very quiet I hope we have a white Christmas !

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Getting yesterday’s stuff at work

Also this afternoon, I had to pick up my clothes at work I had wore yesterday. Other things like my black Timberland boots were also there in the kitchen of the store. But it was also great to see my colleagues again after the party of yesterday.

I also went to my favorite store here called ‘Modemakers’. For years I wanted a nice black faux leather skirt.

Always the moments you don’t have the money … all those things you’ve always wanted are for sale in store. Sor horrible. What did I did wrong? Allong with buying the skirt I got a nice big towel for free because I spent over 50 EUR. It will be THE perfect outfit with a black shirt for my workdays on Sunday when I have to wear black.

Oh yeah , there’s a budget FAILURE this moment on my budgetplanner. In one way it was good that I’m going to move in February. Guess I have to look at my budgetplanner and leave my cards at home. I’m going to take a step back from modern technology and start using cash again.

Thinks to REthink about tomorrow. Now this autism girl is ready for bed, having so much muscles pain again and headache is coming. Tomorrow I have a day of, so I’m glad I can sleep a bit longer !

Have a nice evening !

Love Lucy

Christmastree … time to decorate

Sorry … only in English

Oh Christmastree, oh Christmastree

Since I saw a Christmas musicvideo on Youtube, I’m heaving the Christmasspirit. What’s better than a christmassong ? Well a Country christmassong. 

Today, Tuesday, I had a day off. Besides I have pain in whole my body, I found it was the time to decorate the christmastree.

Christmasornaments

Over the past years, I’ve been collecting Disney ornaments when I visited Disneyland Paris or Walt Disney World. I build a great collection, whish means I now have 7 (yess 7 !!!) banana boxes full of Disney ornaments going from Mickey through Tangled, Frozen, etc.

Decorations enough to fill almost 5 trees like the one I have.

Last year I decided that I wanted a different style and not a Disney Christmastree like the past years.

So last year I went to different stores and bought a decorationcollection that I really love. The important thing about the new decorations was … it’s CATPROOF.

Today I decorated my christmastree with the same ornaments like last year, another catproof tree.

Maybe one day when I move out I will sell all my Disney ornaments because I guess I’m never going to use them again.

White and wood

The theme for my Christmas tree is white and wood, fluffy and cute. I only have a few real balls but the other ornaments are reindeers and foxes.

Let’s start the decoration

Lights and the ‘fake’ tree

Ornaments

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First steps … the lights

Finished tree

Details of all the decorations

Decorations with the lights on

And yours ?

I know it’s just a basic christmas tree and not that beautiful like some of your christmas trees.

My autism makes me do just decorate the basic stuff like the lights and the ornaments. I can’t spend a lot of time on decorating the tree. For this tree I only spend less than 30 min (set up included).
Today I have also a lot of pain so it’s difficult to use my have and to stand very long.

So what do you guys think of all the reindeers? Did you set up your Christmastree already?

Hope you all liked it, and thanks for reading my blog !

Love Lucy, xx