All the stress … it’s freaking me out !

So here I’m again … a few weeks past since my last blogpost. The plan of blogging more, is not been a succes over the past weeks.

I’ve noticed I’ve been active more on Instagram by posting pictures of moments during the day but more than that … is a plan that’s kind of frozen right now.

I work only 3 days a week but I have no time to take a break from live, go on vacation, go away for a few days. Every day is filled with stress, and more stress.
So bad it has blocked me at home from doing nice stuff, stuff I really want to do.

But my autistic life has blocked me, and I don’t now how to take the rest I need right now.

Moving day

Well, the biggest factor of stress is the fact I’m moving next week … THE 4THE OF JULY ! As an America lover I needed this date as an officially moving date.

So I still need to pack a lot of stuff, a lot of clothes, my Disney collection and so much more … but I’m totally missing the drive right now. The drive of cleaning out my room and pack the stuff I need to take with me.

Right now here in Belgium the weather is really summer, like 30C degrees and we will having this temperature untill next weekend !

Sales

Since a few days we have the sale started in Belgium. So things I had on my wishing list are now for sale with a big discount. But as I just finished building my own house, I kind of have a budget for shopping right now. This fashionista is having a hard time not be able to buy what I love when I want it.

This gives me so much stress, and it’s so hard to clean my head with all the emotions because I missed that pair of shoes of handbag I wanted to buy 😥

All the mental help I get right now, is not enough so  I can’t wait for my next session in 2 weeks. Hope I’ll be able to survive till July 16.

Cat

My cat has the intention to take a little summer vacation right now. Which is so horrible, knowing he’s somewhere in the fields behind our house and that harvest season started.

Yesterday he came home for some food and water and now it’s already afternoon and still haven’t seen him today. It’s freaking me out but it’s a farm cat so I can’t do a thing about it. He’s used to this life so he can’t live inside the house all day.

Summer trips

Well, as living on a budget I can’t go on vacation to Florida or take another Disney Cruise for the next years. So sad, because I always lived for vacations, the Mickey Way. I’m living close to Disneyland Paris, well it’s “only” a 3,5 hour drive to Disneyland Paris.

Trips are now trips to the seaside here in Belgium, which you can’t call it paradise. The water is durty, too much people, too much buildings, etc.

Last Tuesday we went to Oostende (pictures on my Instagram page @autisticcountrygirl), and it all started with a train delay of 55 minutes (all minutes we extra spend INSIDE the train). We went to the beach, ate some Mc Donalds, and went to see the Mercator Ship before going back home.

I was so stressed out that I needed to see some shops and spend some money. BAD me I know, because I always having a hard time buying stuff I don’t need when stressed out. Luckely there was a Flying Tiger in Oostende, so it wasn’t that expensive.

Other trips

Well, besides moving and sleeping a lot in my new house, I don’t have plans this summer to go on other big trips. Besides a trip to visit the city of Hasselt next week.

Other trips when be spending a day in Mechelen, my absolute favorite city here in Belgium. It’s so pretty, pretty as the big cities as Bruges or Gant but way smaller and so much nicer.

I really like Antwerp a lot, but it’s a big bigger and since there’s a Primark it’s so buzzy when you have to take the train to the city. So I kind of avoid that right now.

The city of Brussels is horrible, I really hate that city. I worked there for 2 years, but I hated every single day. When you visit some shops, most of them are a total mess. All the toeristic things there in Brussels I don’t like, and everything is so far away. Taking the metro is horrible when you have autistic. In Paris I don’t have a problem with taking the metro because it’s logic, in Brussels it’s horrible to find the right metro, tram or bus.

Plans for my blog … in the next days

  • making a blog with pictures from my visit to Planckendael on June 18, for the press event of Toerisme for Autisme in Belgium.
    Planckendael is just 15 minutes away from my house but I haven’t visit it for 21 years !!!
    I’ll explain in one of my next blogs.
  • posting about my favorite styles for the next season. As a shoeseller I have the first views on the new trends that are coming to our store and to the webshop. I’ve been saving some money to spend on the new collections and last week I bought some of the things for next season.
  • Getting my life back together after moving out
  • life when I moved out
  • Summer trips, or events nearby here in Belgium
  • starting to draw again, not easy with fibromyalgie and painfull hands but I can do this

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If you want to read more on a daily basis from me, you can check out my Twitter (@autisticcountry) or my Instragram (@autisticcountrygirl).

But I’ll make it up here to by posting more blogposts and aswer earlier on you replies.

Thanks for all of you support over the last weeks by liking my posts ! 

Love you all xx

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Why I didn’t write on my blog this past month?

Well, it’s quite shocking for me to see that me last update on my blog was on February 19. It were some very hard 4 weeks to handle everything that was happening in my life … thinking about ‘my autistic life’. 

Here’s some more details about what happened and what is still going on with me today.

Health 

Beeing on the Autistic Spectrum gives me a lot of stress every single day is a struggle. That high level of stress everyday is making my psoriasis on my head very bad. Sometimes I just want to stay inside forever. When you just took a shower and your hair is still dirty, that’s just horrible.

Besides that I also have some rheumatism pain in my hands, fingers, wrist, shoulders, knees, toos and ankles … oh and neck aswell. I can almost say everywhere in my body. Like today I woke up at 2h30 pm this afternoon and still havinging the feeling I want to be in bed.

Working 2 days in a row is so painfull and that is killing me the days after. At work I just take some medication to stop the pain for a few hours, but later at home I feel like crap.

Next week I have some doctor appointments in the hospital to do some tests to check if all my muscle pain is coming from my psoriasis or maybe it’s fibromyalgia.

Oh yeah, going to some new doctors and doing some tests is giving me so much more stress right now. I just have to be strong the next few days. And just not freak out that I have to work from Thursday through Sunday (4 whole days!).

Work

Normally at the end of this month I was finishing my job at my current workplace. There was not a chance to stay because I was just replacing a colleague who was coming back. No place for me there, so I had to start looking for a new job. Like fulltime, parttime, more hours, extra time to travel to work, waking up at 6am again, etc. Who wouldn’t be freaking out?

It’s like starting all over again and again leaving a place where you love to work.

Last week I got the most amazing news on Monday morning. I was just starting to look for some jobs on the internet, when my boss called. They offered me a new contract starting April 2nd till …. (my pension I hope). I just can’t say how HAPPY I felt that moment.

I closed the computer and stopped looking for some new jobs. A part of my stresslevel went down. I felt so good. Keeping this job was so important, and I’m so glad for this chance they gave me.

Weight

When having this pain I take a lot of pain medication during the days I work. Besides that I also use some cremes for the pain. All those things that I do to stop the pain for a few hours, are giving me some weight gane.

Okay, at this point my pants, dresses etc are killing me. Nothing seems to fit good. So scary 😦 But I will work on a healthy diet again.

Not eating peanutbutter is not an issue. I will never give that up.

At this moment I’m baking a healty pineapple cake. So hope I can keep it healthy the next weeks.

Moving

Well as my house is almost finised, it’s also time to start thinking about moving out. Moving for the first time in my life, for the first time in 33 years I’m leaving this house, this farm. It really makes me so sad, and it’s also giving me some more stress. Oh yess, there it is again … some more stress. Like my life is under presure at the moment, time to break every moment.

I’m already started to paint some wall pink, working on my Ikea Hemnes Bathroom like I dreamed off. Oh and I started to pack at home. That is another hard and horrible thing to do. How can you pack in a few weeks? Well, I can’t, I just can’t.

When I take somenthing to put in a box, I have to think like a 1000 times if it’s the right box, do I need that thing in the next weeks, do I really need this in my new home. Saying goodbye to shoes and clothes that’s not done for me. But I have to do it. I just can’t move more than a 100 pairs off shoes in my new dressing room.

I still need some room and space for the new collection of shoes and bags that will come in the next years as I have to buy some new shoes and bags EVERY season to wear in the store.

Steve Madden is my greatest idol ever, and I just am so proud to be a  shoeseller like him and leaving my dream in a shoestore.

Depression

The past weeks I felt a bit depressed, like life was not worth it. With the help of a great team I finally can say it’s going a bit better. Not there yet but I keep working on it every day.

Having some mental problems is hard, and it’s not better in just a few days. Life is a job where you have to work on it every single day.

Glad I can see those words to myself 🙂

Blogging

I totally missed blogging the past weeks. I was active on twitter and on my Instagram but I will write and spend some more time in my blogging. Hope you will still be there to read my story !

Thank you !!!

Love Lucy xx

 

Recipe … A healthy Oatmeal cake (no sugar or fat added)

As my birthday is a few weeks behind me, it’s time to start to work on my newyear resolutions I made for this year. Starting before my birthday is a NO for me because I’ll give so easy with all the threats and snacks.

So now it’s FEBRUARY, oh yess already February. I can’t hardly believe it’s the second month of the new year.

Okay, let’s move over to the point where you decided to read this blog, right?

I hate to cook, but I love to bake ! 

That’s my life quote I guess ! But even when you bake you can make some healthy snacks that are so good for you !

On Thursday I tried to bake a healthy oatmeal cake, and now today I went for perfection. The taste was great but I was just missing something in the cake. Now, it’s good for me, so I hope also good for you !

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RECIPE

Healthy Oatmeal cake

INGREDIENTS

  • 100 grams of oatmeal flakes
  • 3 ripe (almost brown) bananas (taste so much sweeter)
  • 1 big apple
  • 2 tbsp of cinnamon
  • 3 eggs
  • 2 tbsp of raisins (dark)
  • 1 tbsp of almonds (for the topping)

HOW TO BAKE ?

  1. Pre heat the oven at 180° C
  2. Blend the 3 bananas in a blender (type NutriBlender) or just use a fork to mash them like I did
  3. Put the mashed banana in a bowl and add the oatmeal flakes, cinnamon and the eggs
  4. mixt everything
  5. add the raisins and mix again
  6. Slice the apple and cut in small pieces
  7. Add the apple pieces in the bowl and stir everything
  8. Add everything in a cake pan
  9. If you want you can add the almonds on top
  10. put in the oven for about 30 minutes until it’s golden brown
  11. let cool for a few minutes & ENJOY

Here are just some pictures of the steps for baking this healthy cake..

The arome when baking is just sooooo good, so yummie.

Here’s the finished cake

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This is how it looks on the inside, full of good healthy things

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HOW TO EAT?

Well, I like this cake with a cup of coffee, but also with some Greek yogurt.

It’s one of the best things I baked the past weeks, I really hope you like it to. Please let me know if you do or don’t 😉

It’s just perfect for a healthy Sunday snack and for a healthy breakfast to start the next week! Oh and it’s budget proof, so again another winner !

Love Lucy xx

A year older … happy birthday to me

Yesterday was my day of the year … my birthday. I guess when you have passed the 30 line you’re not that excited to celebrate it.

So yesterday was a quiet day for me, just a relaxing day at home. I’ve made a quick visit to spoul my colleagues at work with some healthy snacks and candy.

The rest of the day was just ME time 🙂

#newyearresolutions

After eating not well (not healthy) during the holiday season, I had a terrible day yesterday 😉 Just eating so much snacks and unhealthy things again.

But hey, starting a new year resolution on January 1st and have a birthday 3 weeks later is not a good combination.

Like always I start my new years resolutions on February 1st. So much easier to stay focus on the things you want and need in your life according to your list you’ve made.

First thing on my list is … eating healthier and eating Smat by Niomi Smart her book. A new step of eating vegan or almost vegan.

Other new year resolutions I also talked about them a few blogs ago.

So I’m making 2018 MY year & it’s all starting February 1st !

Love Lucy xx

Just another VANS addict is born

Many years I could resist the trend of Vans, and not buying there Old Skool sneakers. I just was so in love with them, but everytime I said ‘no’ to myself.

I own a pair of old leopard Vans and they were just not fitting correct. So after walking around for an hour they hurted. So that’s the only reason I told myself not to buy a new pair of Vans.

But …

I was still so in love with them

Well, last year I bought my first pair of Vans Old Skool sneakers. Here in Belgium it’s always so hard to find a pair of shoes (trendy shoes) in a size 38. So also with the Vans, they were always sold out so fast in a size 38.

For the moment I saw them in my box (ordered them online at Schoenen Torfs) I was totally in love. I never felt this excited for a pair of shoes.

From the moment I started to wear them, I was in love. Really in love.

A new VANS addict is born

They fit so perfect to my feet, never hurt in the beginning, and I’m so in love with my black Old Skool Vans. They are just perfect with every piece of clothes I have.

After that pair, I ordered another pair and another.

Old Skool with silver

When I saw the pair of black old skool Vans with silver, the new trend for spring/summer, I knew it … those in 38 were mine.

They are just perfect in a different way. I just love to wear them at work and inspire other girls to buy them too (insteat of buying shoes that are now in sale). Why buying a cheaper brand when you can look gorgous with those Vans & rock the world.

So yeah, those Vans are really popular in the store I work. But hey, they are so pretty !

Old Skool pink

From the moment I saw Vans Old Skool sneaker in pink, I planned them on my budget for February. Maybe you remember that blogpost I wrote about what to save for.

Earlier this week I made a reservation to bring over those PINK vans to our store. Online they looked so pretty, so I wanted the ones with the white stripe.

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In this way they look so pretty. So today I went to my store to check on them because they arrived.

I was a bit disappounted when I opened the box. The color is different from the color on the picture above. It’s more of a salmon pink and not the pink tone I was hoping for.

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So those are a NO for me. They looked cute, but it’s just not the right color of pink. So sad, because I really wanted a pair of pink old skool Vans.

Vans SK8 high sneaker pink and rose gold

Because the pink UGG’s were not that pretty, I spend my coupon to buy me those new Vans Sk8 High sneaker. Last Saturday I received the order, but they were a bit ‘yellow’ on the front. So made a new order for the same ones. (Oh yess, when I love something I don’t give up).

These ones are just so beautiful when I wear them. I feel so pretty wearing them and feel so confident in myself having such beautiful sneakers.

So to VANS … perfect job for creating these beauties !

That pink in combination with the rose gold is so beautiful ! Just perfect. I can see myself wearing these all the time at work or just out. That rose gold is the same tone as my Ted Baker Cat purse. Perfect combination.

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This combination will be my key style for spring

Other Vans for the future?

Oh yess, this girl is in love with VANS right now. OKAY OKAY I might be 32 (33 next Saturday the 20th) years old but hey there’s still no age limit on Vans. Right?

Now I’ll be saving money to buy me that black pair of SK8 high sneakers. That will bring my ‘ROCK CHIC’ image back.

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Black Vans SK8 HIGH sneakers by Schoenen Torfs

Shoes, Shoes, Shoes & Shoes

As I’m having a strick budget (till I know what to do to become a freelance copywriter or blogger, next to my job) I will save all the money I have left to buy new shoes.

It’s now January 12th and I haven’t been inside a clothing store like ZARA, H&M, Modemakers or ZEB. Let’s not talk about my store were I work, because I’ve been there the most of the past days.

My plans for 2018, till I got more money to spend, is saving to buy shoes and only shoes to make my outfit look different. I can still were the clothes I bought years ago, and those I still love (with the studs, and country look) but with other pairs of shoes you can create a total new look with a budget.

My shoes (and Vans) are not that expensive than going to a Zara store and leaving with a 300 EUR bill 😮 *shocking* But yess, going to ZARA was always a total attact to my bank account.

Vans

I had planned to save for some Tommy Hilfiger sneakers, but I changed my plans … I want another pair of Vans.

Hoping Vans will release a pair of KAKI Vans in the future or another pair of bordeaux ones. Really love those colors and they make everything perfect!

Your passion?

As you know, my passion is SHOES & fashion. As a girl with autism that’s the only thing that keeps me going through the days.

Do you (on the spectrum or not) have some passion you live for? A passion you can’t live without?

Love Lucy xx

So this was my year … 2017

I just can’t believe this … it’s already January 4th. Where did the last 4 days go? It’s going so fast again. *so shocking*

A year full of changes

If I have to discripe my year 2017 with ONLY one word, it will be … CHANGES !

As a girl on the autistic spectrum, I have to say : “I HATE CHANGES”. It’s so hard for me to deal with new things that are coming to me without I asked for it.

So last year was very hard for me. A lot of changes in every part of my life. Here’s some more about everything …

1. Work

At the end of 2016, I got more and more tasks to do at my old office. My work hours and workdays to do all the things didn’t changed. So more work, and more stress.

All that work ended up with longer workdays. I started at my office at 7.30 am and most of the days I left at 5.15 pm. More than I should be there, but there was no alternative.

My old workplace was not in my area, but near Brussels. So in the mornings I had to leave home and take the train at 6.15 am (every single workday). Most of the days I came home at 7 pm.

As I don’t have a drivers licence, I had to take public transportation like the train and the bus. That combination of trains and busses was horrible.

A lot of stress before work of all the people in the train/bus, than a stressy day at work, and going back with more stress because I was always late at home.

In November 2016 most problems started again like the symptons of an autistic burn-out. But in January 2017 I was ready to get some more help, and I was able to have a positive feeling about the new year. I was planning of searching a new job, closer to home.

Than February 2017 came … The announcement of around 70 people will lose their job in March. So horrible. Together with my depression feelings and that new I got very ill (mentally).

In March I knew I was one of the ‘lucky’ people who was going to lose their job in June. When I got the news I was okay with it. About 15 minutes later, when I saw my colleagues I crashed. Than I realized I had to leave all of them behind and leave the work I loved to do.  change # 1

After taking a long break I didn’t had to go back to work, so May 18 was my last day. A month earlier.

During 3 months I got some amazing support from a extern company here in Belgium to find a new job. As an accountant there are still plenthy of jobs in my area, and still receiving invitations for jobs.

I decided that with my autism (together with my psychiatrist and psychologist) I could work a fulltime job in an office the following months. So time for a new plan. I really love fashion and more I really like shoes.

If I had to search for a new job, I wanted to do something where I can share my passion for shoes and fashion with others.  So I went searching for a job as a shoeseller or fashion advisor (I have a diploma ‘fashion advisor’).

After some tests and interviews I found THE MOST AMAZING job in the world. I started to work in my favorite shoestore. I can talk about shoes all day long. I’m now so happy when I can go to work.

This new job (a new big change) change # 2 changed my life in a positive way. I’m so GRATEFUL for the change I got to work for this amazing team of colleagues ! It’s just like working in a store full of family or friends.

Okay … working in a shoestore is so hard when you have less money because you work parttime. You know what I mean … putting a shoelover in a shoestore is like a kid in a candy store ! It’s so hard!

2. Family

Another change in my life last year. In May I had to say goodbye to my grandma. It was so hard, after knowing here my whole life. As a farmers daughter we always were together here.  change # 3

That with losing my job in March was so hard that I crashed at work when I got the message she past away.  But with some great mental help, I had giving it a place. Not having to go back to work was also a great thing.

Now in January I still have some difficult moments, but that’s everything here reminds me of her (she lived her too).

3. Building a house

Can you guess it? Oh yes another big change. After hunting for the perfect house for years, I started to build (let it build by great people) my own house. Just a little house, but it’s all new, and all the things I like are there.

I had to change to create it the way that I wanted it to be. So now I have the outside looking like the grey bricks of the Cinderella castle at Magic Kingdom in Walt Disney World.  (will post some pictures later, as it’s not whole finished at this day).

This is change # 4 , and it’s going to be a big CHANGE in this year. Hoping to move out after living here at home for 33 years! I’m now going to move to my own place with my 2 beloved cats.

I hope we can be happy there all on ourselfs (me and the cats).

4. Starting a blog

In January 2017 I started a blog here on WordPress (called AutiLucy) about my life at that moment and all the problems I had living my autistic life.

During all those months I was not that ‘happy’ blog.

I took me till June to feel better and better and started to live a happier life again. Left all my previous problems behind.

So my life changed, got my happy life back. I never felt that happy in years ! I was so done with posting on my old blog, because it was a daily remember of all the bad things that happend the past months.

A fresh start in my life, so a fresh start in blogging ! change # 5

In october I started to use Twitter again to share my daily story with people who were kind to me and were interested in my store. So also a THANK YOU to you reading my blog at the moment. I means so much to me.

Day after day I feel so much better when I can blog. It’s like I found of way to talk to people, to share my story, found somebody to listen to me.

5. Losing colleagues, friends

In 2017 I lost the colleagues I loved to work with. But when going to a weekly appointement of ‘outplacement’ I felt better. Now that all of that is over, I kind of miss them. change # 6

During the months of 2017 I also lost some friends. First they stopped talking to me, but hey I’m over that now.

I have a few friends and now I have the amazing colleagues where I can talk to. Oh now I’m putting ‘have’, hope that in don’t have to put ‘had’ in a few weeks as my contract is almost finished. But I will still go shop there, so will see them for sure.

6. Losing weight

At the end of all the changes 2017 gave me. It also gave me the change of losing weight again. I lost 17 kg from January till August. Just eating healthier, making healthier choices. change # 7

The weight came on because of all the medication I had to take for my depression / autistic burn-out. I still take some of that medication but I eat less and drink more water.

I’m also became a big fan of Noimi Smart and since I have here first cookbook I’m all into eating better.

I stopped eating meat, and trying to eat more veggies.

As part of my autism, I have some problems with eating. I eat things in an order, start my day with the same breakfast every single day. If I liked something to eat, I can eat that for days, till the moment I had enough.

On days I work till 7 pm I don’t eat a warm (good) meal, but now I trying to eat a healthy wrap with spinach.

7. Parttime job, parttime money

After working a fulltime job for more than 10 years, I started to work a parttime job. I was used to buy the things I like. To buy the parfum and make-up I wanted and that was so good, but so expensive (looking at it now).  change # 8

Now I have half the budget, but not half the costs in my life. Guess that part of bills will never change. You always have to pay the bills and bills are still coming. So shocking. But the truth.

Now I have to look at things I want for weeks, plan it, make a budget and safe a lot of money (a lot of money).

Not buying the shoes you like, when you’re working in a shoestore. SO yeah it’s a hard life having a budget. Plan for 2018 is to find a way to get more money but not having to work outside the house for a fulltime job. Doing a parttime job as extra from here at home, that will work for me. No stress of public transportation which made my days so bad.

8. What about 2018?

Well, 2018 will be another year with big changes. But now I feel happy and for the first time I’m okay with all the new things coming my way. Kind of strange to say that I’m feeling okay with changes in my life.

Here are some changes that are coming to me in the next months:

  • some hospital appointements coming soon, and it’s pretty scary for me.
  • can I stay at my job or not? searching a new job or not?
  • decorating my new home
  • preparing my cats to move
  • moving out
  • hospital for some test for fibromyalgia or ???
  • finding an extra job or find a way to become a freelance blogger or writer, or trying to life from my blog. Can’t live my life with less money because of my fulltime job.
  • starting a budget planner to start safe money

Probably more changes coming, but you’ll be the first to know it.

 

I’m ending my blog here. Enough changes to talk about. In every single part of my life I had to make changes.

Love Lucy xx

If you have some tips on how to get more money as a blogger, freelancer, etc from home, please let me know.

2018 … Things I’ll be saving for

So as 2017 is almost over …  it’s time to look forward to 2018. A new year, a new life, a new lifestyle, new house etc.

As an autistic girl I really hate changes in my life/days … so guess 2018 will be so hard.
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That doesn’t mean I don’t look forward to this new year.

As you might know from earlier … I’m a lifestyleblogger on a budget. So now for the first time in my life I really have to plan everything before buying it ! Insteat of just going to ZARA, Schoenen Torfs, H&M etc., I have to wait till there’s enough money in my jar (yess I’ve made a maison jar to collect my money).

Preparing for the new season …

So now were are in the beginning of winter, I’m looking at some collections for the new season. Every year I start buying new collections at the end of january.

I have to admit, that I already bought a pair of new Old Skool Vans (silver & black) in November.

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They are the Old Skool but in a modern version. I really love them, but now I have them at work for when my other shoes hurts during the day.
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Other things I bought the past weeks are a Ted Baker bag and my gold loafers I wore on Christmas day.

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Golden loafers Marco Tozzi by Schoenen Torfs

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This is one of my favorite items, a black Ted Baker bag with cat ears. The combination of a black bag and this cat theme made me buy it. I bought with a discount, so got it for around 45 EUR insteat of 55,95

SO yeah, it was a great deal. As it’s a plastic bag, the quality is not that great. It’s a very hard plastic, so when you put a lot of heavy stuff in the bag it will brake. Like I did with mine 😥 Offcourse I can take it back to store to get fixed but I’m okay with it, it’s now a collectors item for me.

Sad, this item of the spring and summer collection I can’t use.

Ted Baker, oh yess again

This morning I bought another item from the new spring and summer collection from Ted Baker. In my handbag I have pencils all over it, I never can’t find my pens, and my pencils are always broken.

So insteat of buying new pencils all the time, I thought it was time to buy a pencil case. A good, decent pencil case to hold every pen & pencil and so they won’t brake again.

Ted Baker has a new pencil case (a really small bag) but it’s a hard plastic and super strong to protect my pencils. They were on sale in black and pink.

The pink one I bought this morning…

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The same one in black is on his way to the store. I needed 2 of them, one for the pencils (and drawning materials) and one for my pens.

THINGS I’LL BE SAVING FOR …

So I’ve started to put a list with things I really want for the next season. I went to (a part) of my wardrobe and actually I don’t need that much new summer clothes. With some new shoes and a bag, I can wear them another season.

I can invest in some great pieces, but only if I plan when I’m going to buy them !

Most of the things I saw for the new season, I found online at the online store of my favorite shoe store here in Belgium.

Want to see what’s on my saving list for the upcoming weeks/months?

Here they are … let’s start with some shoes (to make my outfit look new & fresh again), and end with bags to make it more special.

Shoes

In spring and summer I have a hard time to find some great shoes. Mostly I wear my white Converse All Stars and that’s it (wear some other Converse I have in my collection).

For the first time EVER, I mean like EVERRRR, I bought some Vans Old Skool sneakers this year. You might look surprised and have something like ‘WHAAAAAT’? Yess, you found the girl who doesn’t own a pair of Vans !

So this year I bought a pair of black Old Skool Vans, but they are now old and not are looking that great to wear in a shoe store all day. So on my list for this spring and summer, I have on first place a pair of new black ones.

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Other shoes on my list are … VANS. Oh yess, another pair of Vans. Yess, I’m in love with these shoes.

But for this moment, I just can’t decide with type I really want. They are both pink, both looking great but in one way they are different (the white stripe).
So I’m still in doubt about which pair. What do you think? The one with the white or without the white?

Guess the ones with the white are just a little more ‘fresh’ looking for spring?
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Vans Old Skool Pink – totally pink

The last pair of shoes (after seeing all my clothes in my wardrobe) are the ones below from Tommy Hilfiger. Besides my pair of white Converse, I never owned a pair of total white sneakers.

These are more saying ‘chic’ than the Vans ones which just go with everything. The ones from Tommy I can only wear with clothes I have with something gold.

This is actually the first year I find some really nice summer shoes, that are not Converse or Winter Timberland I wear all year round.

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Tommy Hilfiger – white with golden stars These are the new Tommy Hilfiger I saw in the store. At first look I was not so sure about it, just because of the details. But after fitting them a few times in the store and checking my clothes earlier. I now these would look great with a lot of my dresses and jeans.

So than I have a pair silver Vans to wear with silver jewelry and a pair with golden details to wear with all my golden jewelry.

Handbags & bags

So I’ve told you about the shoes I’ll be saving for the next season.
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I also have some bags I really want for the new season.

I’m not such a hugh fan of handbag, besides my collection of Fossil bags which are totally my favorite ones. I will never throw them away. Fossil isn’t a brand which is sold in the store I work, so I found it hard to wear them to work.

For the summer I found some really nice golden handbags in our store from Kisses of Pearl. But after looking at my clothes I have, the shoes I want. I really I’m not that convinced of buying them.

Guess they will be to classic to go with the converse and the gold will look different on the bag than on the Tommy shoes. And golden handbag will not go with the silver & black Vans I bought earlier.

WOW I’m so surprised of myself ! I’m mostly I’m an impuls buyer, but now I’m really looking to find the BEST piece to wear longer and have longer in my collection than just one season (mostly a couple of weeks). #feelingproud

Ted Baker

Since I have that cat looking handbag of Ted Baker I’m more and more a fan of this brand. BUT I promised myself … if I buy another Ted Baker I’ll invest in a leather one not a plastic for me again!

So today I was in the store and put them in reservation for me. So now I have some time to think about it, think about it, and THINK about it.

First one is this shopper leather shopper bag, but then a black one with pink on the inside. This silver one will have to exact same effect on me as the golden bags I was talking about before. So NOOOO to the Silver bag.

Guess I put one of the last items in reservation because I can’t find the black one on the internet at this moment. So it’s this one but in black and fuxia pink on the inside.
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This will be a shopper bag to take to work and take my lunch and papers with me. This bag I can’t take with me all day or when I just have to go grocery shopping. I never can’t find my wallet and phone on time when I have to pay (because of all the stuff in collect in such big bags).

For my wallet & phone I bought another little bag. Another Ted Baker bag, and also a leather one.

It’s quite an investment but I think (and I really hope that it’s great quality) and it will be an item I will have for years. Because it’s just going to be a part of me. Curious about the bag?
Well here it is … a black leather CAT bag !

Oh guess I’m a real cat lady, and a big lover of BLACK cats ! Wearing this bag will mean I have my black cat always with me.

I think that this is such a great vallue for my money and worth saving money for. Guess saving will be so much easier when I put a picture on my cards and my jar from this bag. Then I know why I can spend money on clothes, because I really want to have THIS BAG.

Black cat bag TED BAKER

In winter time Ted Baker had another collection with ‘cat’ shaped bags a silver and a burgundy one. Really was in love with them, and I was hoping for them to get on sale. But now they are on sale, I prefer this black one. Black is always a better idea for a bag !

Last season Ted Baker bags…

Everything?

Yess, everything ! This was everything on my list, just 3 pair of sneakers (to wear for the now season at work most of the time) and than 2 beautiful bags. For now this will such a good reason to save money because they are such beautiful pieces!

It will make my outfits as new, and make me stop spend so much money at ZARA (sorry Zara, always love you), H&M, Modemakers (shop here in Belgium) and Zeb (another store here in Belgium).

Now I’m going to print that black cat bag and put it everywhere where I have money !

Winter sale

Okay, officially the winter sales start in Belgium on January 2nd. Great day that I have to work, and can’t go to the sales !

For my new house I need a pair of UGG style boots to wear inside the house, because my stairs is to dangerous to were slippers or slip-on shoes.

So now I’m in doubt about the color of UGG I would buy, I hope I can have those UGG for years (like the pair of grey boots I already have for more than 5 years).

As it’s for inside the house, I’m still thinking about the pink one or the cognac brown ones with the bow. Another investment, as I’m not planning to buy new UGG for the upcoming years !

These are the two I’m thinking about …

 

And you?

Are you already thinking about the new season for clothes, shoes, bags? Or I’m I (again) one of the girls that is to early with planning the new season?

What do you think about the items I’ve been selecting for spring/summer?

Love to read your comments !

Please note that every pictures I used comes from the site of Schoenen Torfs a famous (the best) store for shoes and bags in Belgium.
Guess most of the items I like are also for sale on international sites who will ship to you. 

Love Lucy xx

Blogmas 16 … Starting to plan 2018

New Year is coming, time for a new agenda !

 

Digital or Paper one?

In times everybody is using a diary/agenda on their phone or by mail, I still like to use a PAPER one.

Specially for me a digital agenda doesn’t work. On my iPhone I have to click on a day to see what I have planned for that week. I just can’t see al my plans for every day of the week in one view.

I’m a visual girl, I have to see what I have to do for the next days. In that way I can get plans in my head of how I’m going to handle that week. Oh, and be prepared of all the things that are coming to me.

The most important thing about an agenda for me is the way how it looks inside. The outside is less important, because you can make it look better all the time (in the style you want).

Little black one for 2018

A few weeks ago I bought a little agenda (between an A5 and A6 size), a plain black one. I bought it in a Dutch store called Action. It’s a cheaper store,  kind of the dollar store you have in the USA. This agenda I’m going to use next year was less than 2 EUR.

I have a good view over all the days of the week. The only thing I like less, is that the days of the weekend are so smal. For a girl who works on Saturday and Sunday, that’s a big disadvantage.

Let’s make it MINE!

Just a plain black one, that’s just to plain and to classic for me. I bought this agenda with the idea of making it look better.

Here is my agenda and pens I used to create the look of my agenda and fill it in. Oh yeah I have a lot of things to do in January!

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Black is just black … so making it more TRENDY and CLASSY with gold on the paper endings

So when my agenda is closed, I have a black and gold one instead of a normal black and white one.

After working on the outside, it was time to work on the inside

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During the year I will add more stamps to it when I find cute ones to try.

Now it was time to fill in my plans and appointments for January. But first my personal information page (sorry will not show this all filled in).

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Now let’s write down my plans and appointments

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Here’s my finished project for now. As I told you, I will add more and more things during the year. I collect all kind of things in my agenda/diary like pictures, clothes tags, pieces of bags, buttons, stickers, etc. Really everything you can collect and paste on your pages it’s in there.

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Please note : I keep every agenda I’m using, so I still have my agenda from the first year I started to work in 2007. Great momories, that I keep this way.  So it’s like just a normal photobook, diary etc for me to keep forever in my life.

And you ?

Do you like a digital agenda/diary or a paper one?  If you use a paper one, how does it looks?

Thanks for reading ! Love Lucy xx

Blogmas 13 … What I’ll be watching on Netflix

Sorry, so sorry that I couldn’t write my yesterday’s blog ! It was a long workday (sold a lot of shoes) and I had (still have) a very terrible toothache. 

What will I watch the upcoming week?

Most of you bloggers are having a top 10 with favorite things to watch this christmas season.  I also have a top list of things I have to watch this Holiday season.

I’m not that girl that goes to a theater to watch the big movies that are coming out ! So here no Star Wars movie on my list, or others. I really like movies I can watch at home, in a quiet place where I don’t have to be stress with all the sounds of drinks and popcorn of others.

Ready? Let’s found out which one.

# 1 A Wish for Christmas

This movie I really want to see again, really loved it last year. I’m a big fan of Lacey Chabert.

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# 2 A Christmas Prince

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For this one, I’m not that enthousiast. I just want to see it because everybody is talking about it. I’ll let you know how it was.

# 3 Every Christmas has a story

I started watching this movie a few weeks ago, but I fell asleep. So this is one thing on my list to see, and see the whole movie in one time.

In Full House and now Fuller House I always liked Lori, since I was a kid and I saw here the first time. So this movie I can’t miss this season.

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# 4 Olaf’s Frozen Adventure … oh and Frozen

Now with all the commotion about the part of Frozen before the movie Coco, I really want to see this Frozen Adventure. Sorry, but I just can’t spend 9 EUR for a movie where I get nuts of all the noices and I only want to see the Frozen part. Coco is something I want to watch for the first time at home.

Next Saturday the 23th, a television station here in Belgium will show Olaf’s Frozen Adventure on TV. So I can record this and watch it when I’m alone or just maybe watch it when it’s showing that evening.

After the Olaf’s Frozen Adventure, this tv station will also show the original Frozen movie. I also recorded this one, for when I’m alone here, my other family will not be happy when Frozen will play.

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And the ONE thing I REALLY REALLY want to see the upcoming week is

Fuller House

The last thing I want to watch the upcoming week, well Friday the 22 December!  I have a day off, so I hope it’s on Netflix in the morning here so I can watch this all day long in PJ’s. Would be nice to relax, drink hot cocoa and eat some waffles and watch Fuller House.

I watch every episode when I was a kid, was a hugh fan of Lori (Becky). Even when I couldn’t speak English, I could say some quotes from the episode by heart. Very strange, but that’s maybe my autistic part.

Unfortually I lost that. When I see a movie or follow a show on Netflix I always forget it, or I forget the important stuff so I have to re-watch a half episode before playing the next one.

But for now … I can’t wait to watch FULLER HOUSE !!!!

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Love Lucy xx

Blogmas 9 … time to Party! Outfit & feelings

Yesterday was a pretty bizzy day, and was back home well it was today. This is how my day was and what I wore that evening.

Workday

My day started with a workday at 9.15 am till 5pm. Not a long workday like every other Saturday but that was good.

It was a bizzy day at work, lot of people in store to buy winterboots. Oh yess, that’s how Belgian people think. We not buying wintershoes untill it’s cold and snowy. I guess people here are guessing that winter starts when the sales starts and that is good to send your kids to school in the snow with summer sneakers.

I always plan, plan and plan and I’m buying shoes for fall in summer time when they first arrive in store. I’m always prepared for colder weather, guess any weather 😉

The first shoes of the summer collection came last week and yesterday I also have put the last pairs of them in the store. There are some really pretty shoes for kids out now, which I shared on my facebookaccount to my friends.

It’s 5 PM

Most people were surprised that the store was going to close at 5 PM insteat of after 6PM. But hey, that one day we could go to a party together.

Between 5pm and 5.45pm I went to the store next to us to buy a black shirt. I wasn’t sure my black tee from Zara was good enough after hearing wat others were going to wear. I’m always so insecure about my own clothes :/

After that it was time to prepare for the party, to do my hair and put on my clothes. It was kind of strange to do your make-up in a shoestore.

Once I put on my whole outfit I felt so proud, even with that Zara shirt.

Time to party !

We arrived at the party at 8.30pm. It was soooo pretty inside (sorry I have no pictures to show). The time was ‘magic’ but it felt like a magical woods. I really love it.

When we arrived it was good, not a lot of people, not a lot of lights etc. When the party started and everybody showed up it was insane for this autism girl. So much noice, so much different lightning. Like an instant I had a massive headache. It was so shocking all that pain in less that half an hour 😮

The food was great, but I couldn’t eat much because of the pain.

After eating it was time to dance, so I did. A BIG surprise for me, that I (yeah MEEEE) danced for a few hours ! I never did that. So I danced with a lot of pain.

I came home around 1.30 am this morning. Years ago that I came home that late, normally I go to bed at 10pm.

OUTFIT

So yesterday was the day I could were my beloved Pink tutu to the party. Insteat of wearing this tutu with a pair of high heels, I wore it with my pair of dr. Martens to make it more ‘rockchic’. I really loved the combination.

Oh I wish I could wear my tutu everyday from now. I missed it wearing it today. ‘So where’s the next party!’

Last evening I FORGOT (oh yeah forgot) to take pictures of my outfit before the party, because I was bizzy talking to colleagues.

So this evening I took some pictures to give you all an idea of how my outfit was that evening.

I felt so great wearing this, so proud, so confident, so happy, so meeeee.

Are you ready to see them ?

My dr.Martens MONO black boots with silver glitter socks. Both are coming from Schoenen Torfs here in Belgium.

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My midi long pink tutu (from The Tutu Shop, a  online shop for tutus here in Belgium) with my black basic shirt from Zara

My total outfit with my faux leather jacket from Vila by Zeb Belgium

Some more details… The little handbag is from Kisses of pearl, from Schoenen Torfs. The cat ears are from H&M

Other things

The evening I wore some earings from Pieces, like an old silver, the ones I always wear.

For make-up I wore…

  • foundation 010 by Lidl
  • powder by Maybelline
  • red lipstick by Clinique, my last berry pop one
  • mascara by Benefit
  • eye shadow the ones I bought on friday from Catrice
  • setting powder was by Maybelline

Like always I don’t do contouring or use blush, because that makes me look older. I really want to look young as I am and how I dress with that.

 

So I hope you loved reading this #blogmas part of me preparing for the party I was so looking forward to. I felt like ages. Now that the party is over, I have the feeling that I lost my christmas feeling. I feel like the season is already over. So strange. Maybe it’s because this was something I really wanted, and I could be me all the time yesterday. 

Now I have to found my inner Christmas spirit again.

Love Lucy xx