A year older … happy birthday to me

Yesterday was my day of the year … my birthday. I guess when you have passed the 30 line you’re not that excited to celebrate it.

So yesterday was a quiet day for me, just a relaxing day at home. I’ve made a quick visit to spoul my colleagues at work with some healthy snacks and candy.

The rest of the day was just ME time 🙂

#newyearresolutions

After eating not well (not healthy) during the holiday season, I had a terrible day yesterday 😉 Just eating so much snacks and unhealthy things again.

But hey, starting a new year resolution on January 1st and have a birthday 3 weeks later is not a good combination.

Like always I start my new years resolutions on February 1st. So much easier to stay focus on the things you want and need in your life according to your list you’ve made.

First thing on my list is … eating healthier and eating Smat by Niomi Smart her book. A new step of eating vegan or almost vegan.

Other new year resolutions I also talked about them a few blogs ago.

So I’m making 2018 MY year & it’s all starting February 1st !

Love Lucy xx

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The day after Christmas

So here it is … The day after Christmas ! Yesterday I was hoping for this day to come, now I want it do be over !

When your body is killing yourself !

As a girl with autism, one of the things I really hate is the holiday season in December. Really like the past week, and the upcoming week.

How about Christmas day?

Well, I can be short … it was a horrible day ! We had some family over for the afternoon and dinner time.

Everybody was screaming, yelling insteat of talking and that all before drinking alcohol. So I start to watch some episodes of Fuller House on mij iPhone.

That was good for 45 min and then I had to go home (the house next door). I was already too much, and need a time to escape the madness.

It wasn’t that great beeing there together, like always I started to get a migraine. Those people don’t understand ‘having autism’ so I haven’t told them I have autism. Will it change their behevior? NOPE, it will be worst I guess.

So next Christmas I’ll be living on my own, and I will be just alone for Christmas without family and without the screaming. Then it will be just me and my cats.

Spending Christmas in a quiet place, YEAH I really can’t wait. Maybe that will make me love the holidays again.

For dinner I had just a sandwich with peanutbutter and jam, and some whipped cream cake.

After dinner I had enough ! I went home, not saying goodbye and locked the door here. I wanted to be alone. Later that evening they were leaving and they were knocking on the door, but I refused to open it and to say goodbye. When I’m hurt I’m hurt. 

The day after Christmas

So what about today ?

Today I woke up at 9am, ate some breakfast and went back to bad. My head was exploding and I had pain just everywhere (now I have horrible pain in my hand writing this blog).

This afternoon I stayed in bed and watched the last episodes of Fuller House. I actually woke up again and came out of bed around 3 pm!

All my muscles hurt so much, can bearly move and have no energy doing stuff.

Seeing a doctor?

Yes, I’ve searched for an appointement with a specialist. Everywhere here in my area is having a long waiting time. SO, I can have an appointement at the end of MAY.

Yess you read it good ! An appointement in MAY ! So this will be a long 5 months with pain everywhere. So horrible! (I know this blog had a lot of ‘horrible’ in it, sorry). Feeling like Grumpy cat right now. 

” What I got for Christmas? “

Everybody is showing their ‘what I got for Christmas’ on their Instagram/Twitter/Facebook and their blog.

No I will not show here my list of things “what I got for Christmas”? Euhm why not? Well simple ! I didn’t got a present for Christmas.

WHAT? You might be shocked ! But is another reason why I don’t feel all the Christmas spirit like anyone else. For me not a surprise, I’m used to it. Maybe I will get some presents at New Year.

But I’m not expecting some big presents !

So I’m a bit sorry that I can’t watch all your “what I got for Christmas” blogs, it’s making this autistic girl feel sad 😥 

Love Lucy xx

 

Blogmas 10 … the day after

Indeed the day after the big pary ! I wished I could spend it at my job, but I had a day off. So what have I been up to, the day after a long day for an autism girl???

I had sooooo much pain and had no energy

Morning

Arriving around 1.30 am this morning, oh yess it was morning again. So already here I am with blogmas part 10.

I woke up around 8.30am after beeing awake for more than 30 min. I couldn’t stand on my feet, I had to much pain on my muscles to move. So I had to stay in bed for a long time and reading all the new about the new that was coming.

After my pain was getting less I woke up and got some breakfast. Just an oatmeal chocolate milk and bread with chocolate. I was in the moode for chocolate this morning, I needed some sugar !

Plans after breakfast? Well, I went back to bed. I was feeling horrible, had a lot of pain so best plan was to get back to bed for the rest of the morning.

Afternoon

Around noon I had some time to spend with my 2 beloved cats #teddy and #blacky (blacky is the one with all the colors).

I’ve safed them from the snow outside !

When I first let them in, I guess there were singing …

Baby it’s cold outside

Oh I just love my 2 cats, can’t live without them !

OH RIGHT … THERE WAS SNOW ! THE FIRST REAL SNOW IN BELGIUM

Before noon it was snowing so much here in Belgium. It was so beautiful. Why ‘was’? Because it’s all gone sinds 2 pm this afternoon, when it started to rain 😥 So sad, I really like the snow and the cold.

Here are some pictures of our first snow

Looking at my Chirstmas tree and than seeing all the snow outsite was also so pretty. Very quiet I hope we have a white Christmas !

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Getting yesterday’s stuff at work

Also this afternoon, I had to pick up my clothes at work I had wore yesterday. Other things like my black Timberland boots were also there in the kitchen of the store. But it was also great to see my colleagues again after the party of yesterday.

I also went to my favorite store here called ‘Modemakers’. For years I wanted a nice black faux leather skirt.

Always the moments you don’t have the money … all those things you’ve always wanted are for sale in store. Sor horrible. What did I did wrong? Allong with buying the skirt I got a nice big towel for free because I spent over 50 EUR. It will be THE perfect outfit with a black shirt for my workdays on Sunday when I have to wear black.

Oh yeah , there’s a budget FAILURE this moment on my budgetplanner. In one way it was good that I’m going to move in February. Guess I have to look at my budgetplanner and leave my cards at home. I’m going to take a step back from modern technology and start using cash again.

Thinks to REthink about tomorrow. Now this autism girl is ready for bed, having so much muscles pain again and headache is coming. Tomorrow I have a day of, so I’m glad I can sleep a bit longer !

Have a nice evening !

Love Lucy

Blogmas 9 … time to Party! Outfit & feelings

Yesterday was a pretty bizzy day, and was back home well it was today. This is how my day was and what I wore that evening.

Workday

My day started with a workday at 9.15 am till 5pm. Not a long workday like every other Saturday but that was good.

It was a bizzy day at work, lot of people in store to buy winterboots. Oh yess, that’s how Belgian people think. We not buying wintershoes untill it’s cold and snowy. I guess people here are guessing that winter starts when the sales starts and that is good to send your kids to school in the snow with summer sneakers.

I always plan, plan and plan and I’m buying shoes for fall in summer time when they first arrive in store. I’m always prepared for colder weather, guess any weather 😉

The first shoes of the summer collection came last week and yesterday I also have put the last pairs of them in the store. There are some really pretty shoes for kids out now, which I shared on my facebookaccount to my friends.

It’s 5 PM

Most people were surprised that the store was going to close at 5 PM insteat of after 6PM. But hey, that one day we could go to a party together.

Between 5pm and 5.45pm I went to the store next to us to buy a black shirt. I wasn’t sure my black tee from Zara was good enough after hearing wat others were going to wear. I’m always so insecure about my own clothes :/

After that it was time to prepare for the party, to do my hair and put on my clothes. It was kind of strange to do your make-up in a shoestore.

Once I put on my whole outfit I felt so proud, even with that Zara shirt.

Time to party !

We arrived at the party at 8.30pm. It was soooo pretty inside (sorry I have no pictures to show). The time was ‘magic’ but it felt like a magical woods. I really love it.

When we arrived it was good, not a lot of people, not a lot of lights etc. When the party started and everybody showed up it was insane for this autism girl. So much noice, so much different lightning. Like an instant I had a massive headache. It was so shocking all that pain in less that half an hour 😮

The food was great, but I couldn’t eat much because of the pain.

After eating it was time to dance, so I did. A BIG surprise for me, that I (yeah MEEEE) danced for a few hours ! I never did that. So I danced with a lot of pain.

I came home around 1.30 am this morning. Years ago that I came home that late, normally I go to bed at 10pm.

OUTFIT

So yesterday was the day I could were my beloved Pink tutu to the party. Insteat of wearing this tutu with a pair of high heels, I wore it with my pair of dr. Martens to make it more ‘rockchic’. I really loved the combination.

Oh I wish I could wear my tutu everyday from now. I missed it wearing it today. ‘So where’s the next party!’

Last evening I FORGOT (oh yeah forgot) to take pictures of my outfit before the party, because I was bizzy talking to colleagues.

So this evening I took some pictures to give you all an idea of how my outfit was that evening.

I felt so great wearing this, so proud, so confident, so happy, so meeeee.

Are you ready to see them ?

My dr.Martens MONO black boots with silver glitter socks. Both are coming from Schoenen Torfs here in Belgium.

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My midi long pink tutu (from The Tutu Shop, a  online shop for tutus here in Belgium) with my black basic shirt from Zara

My total outfit with my faux leather jacket from Vila by Zeb Belgium

Some more details… The little handbag is from Kisses of pearl, from Schoenen Torfs. The cat ears are from H&M

Other things

The evening I wore some earings from Pieces, like an old silver, the ones I always wear.

For make-up I wore…

  • foundation 010 by Lidl
  • powder by Maybelline
  • red lipstick by Clinique, my last berry pop one
  • mascara by Benefit
  • eye shadow the ones I bought on friday from Catrice
  • setting powder was by Maybelline

Like always I don’t do contouring or use blush, because that makes me look older. I really want to look young as I am and how I dress with that.

 

So I hope you loved reading this #blogmas part of me preparing for the party I was so looking forward to. I felt like ages. Now that the party is over, I have the feeling that I lost my christmas feeling. I feel like the season is already over. So strange. Maybe it’s because this was something I really wanted, and I could be me all the time yesterday. 

Now I have to found my inner Christmas spirit again.

Love Lucy xx